Since I haven't posted anything in apparently 64 weeks on here....
Thought I might give a little insight into my life right now. Some of you may know that I moved to Spain for some time over the summer, but I have been back for several months now and all I keep hearing is 'Yeah, we need to hang out and do stuff... ' or 'I miss you so much! I wanna see you! ' And when I try to make plans, nothing happens. Only a few people have actually followed through. I am not going to lie... This is how I feel about my friends right now... I left Ohio almost five years ago and they are asking me every day when I am going to come see them again... And my friends here, that I only left for five MONTHS, seem to be ignoring my presence. Yeah, I left all things and skipped town for awhile, but if you're really my friends, why the fuck am I getting pushed off like this? In current events, I am seriously losing patience and getting home sickness and feeling quite quick to pack up and go back to Ohio,... What is stopping me?- My son. I love my son to death and don't want to leave him again for months at a time again... However, I think that going up North a minute might be the answer to my current depression. I am not saying ALL my friends down here are pushing me aside, but a good portion is. I have found that down here, people are usually an aquintance ( spelling? ) and not a close friend. I am also wondering if some of this neglect has something to do with my boyfriend. Guess what... You should be my friend no matter what my descisions are or who I date or what I do... friends love you no matter what! If you don't like him, that is too damn bad, because I love him and that is fact! i am not in some lustful situation... I really, truly, love my boyfriend. Yes, he has his vices, but don't we all? Everyone is so quick to judge my life as of lately and I am sick of it! So, th equestion is... Who are my REAL friends anyway?... Seems to me that they are miles away and miss me as much as I miss them. Sorry, if I hurt anyone's feelings, but you hurt me as well...