How the day unfolded....
Bob called me today, for a lunch date to discuss the pageant. I had laid down and took a nap, and the phone rang about 11:30. It was my sister. She smalled talked for awhile and wanted to know if I had talked to anyone outside the "family" that I hadn't heard from in a long time. I didn't know what she was getting at, and took somewhat of a scare from it, thinking that "something" had indeed happened. Turn to find out, that Kara had sent Patrick an e-mail congratulating him on his marriage to Laurie. Where this came from, who knows. At the same time, Bob showed up at my door, and i was still 1/2 asleep. Had a good lunch and conversation with him, and then he droped me off at the hospital (I told him I had a staff meeting), and then met up with Karla.
I basically lost it in her office, and proud that I told her everything: the sex, the drugs, my feelings. She shed light on my vision of the open field, as if I feel if I am being exposed or not. I don't think I am. I'm upsett. She also mentioned that it seems like I always have so much I want to do, and no real rationalization of prioritizing going on. That i get misdirected, and not goal orientated. She told me that I need to take a break, put everything on the back burner, and deal with it, one by one. That, that wouldn't be a bad idea. She agreed with me, that i had been making progress and now too a few steps back.
Decisions-
I basically lost it in her office, and proud that I told her everything: the sex, the drugs, my feelings. She shed light on my vision of the open field, as if I feel if I am being exposed or not. I don't think I am. I'm upsett. She also mentioned that it seems like I always have so much I want to do, and no real rationalization of prioritizing going on. That i get misdirected, and not goal orientated. She told me that I need to take a break, put everything on the back burner, and deal with it, one by one. That, that wouldn't be a bad idea. She agreed with me, that i had been making progress and now too a few steps back.
Decisions-