Goodbye Pawpaw, I love you

[thirteenchucks]

Yesterday, my grandfather ( who i know as Pawpaw ) died. It wasnt really shocking, as he's been trying to recover from heart surgery a month ago.. but.. the doctors asked the family how far to take it. To stop at cpr? My aunt asked him, and he said 'Keep me alive'. That's what makes this hard- its easy to say he's lived a good life, it was his time, etc. but, he wasnt ready. He was fighting, trying as hard as he could just to get to the point to be able to go home.. He didnt want to die.
Just knowing that is the worst, its just not him. Pawpaw is not 'keep me alive'. Pawpaw is happy, funny.. strange.. which is how I'll remember him, and keep him in my soul.