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I can't bear to speak to my parents.
I feel out of place with my friends.
I don't know what to do..There is a straight through train to Aberdeen tomorrow, but that means seeing Kieran and Gill. Gill has been paying off K's debts and buying him cigarettes and using other people's food. Because shes bizarre and from Skye. Probably.
If I don't go, I get to go out on Thursday with Sal and Jo but its Mission, and..I always do something stupid in there. I'm so bored sitting around waiting for things to happen. All of my friends are at college and I'm sat on my arse doing nothing.
I could do with someone to talk to..Theres only Kieran and hes too immature even though hes three years older than me. God.
Lost a lot of weight though I think, or at least, I think I have. I bloody hope so, I've stopped drinking milk and eating bread and cereal because my stomach was killing me. Even went to the doctors where they took about five tubes of blood from me though the stupid nurse had to stab me with the needle several times and then left it leaking out of the tube down my jeans while she looked from the little tube things. She was amazed that I didn't get upset about the needles and blood but..Guess I'm used to it.
Why are there so many communities devoted to anorexic teenagers who congratulate each other on starving themselves? I'm on a diet but..I'm eating more. I ate three cans of tuna yesterday!
I feel out of place with my friends.
I don't know what to do..There is a straight through train to Aberdeen tomorrow, but that means seeing Kieran and Gill. Gill has been paying off K's debts and buying him cigarettes and using other people's food. Because shes bizarre and from Skye. Probably.
If I don't go, I get to go out on Thursday with Sal and Jo but its Mission, and..I always do something stupid in there. I'm so bored sitting around waiting for things to happen. All of my friends are at college and I'm sat on my arse doing nothing.
I could do with someone to talk to..Theres only Kieran and hes too immature even though hes three years older than me. God.
Lost a lot of weight though I think, or at least, I think I have. I bloody hope so, I've stopped drinking milk and eating bread and cereal because my stomach was killing me. Even went to the doctors where they took about five tubes of blood from me though the stupid nurse had to stab me with the needle several times and then left it leaking out of the tube down my jeans while she looked from the little tube things. She was amazed that I didn't get upset about the needles and blood but..Guess I'm used to it.
Why are there so many communities devoted to anorexic teenagers who congratulate each other on starving themselves? I'm on a diet but..I'm eating more. I ate three cans of tuna yesterday!