My Year In Review
So 2008 came and went faster than I can comprehend. It was the biggest roller coaster ride of my life. From break ups, to heartbreaks, from roads to recovery to getting life back on track. This was my most memorable year, it will be from now on, my year of a turning point. To learn from mistakes, to learn to let go, and to learn to find that when one door opens, others will open.
January- So the start of the year went well. I got a new car =) My mitsubishi galant which I love ever so much. I named her pepper. Took a trip to FL. enjoyed the warmth. Saw my mo fo and company again.
February- Valentines day was pretty memorable. Matt took me to the Melting Pot. It was awesome, I haven't been back since. Not to say really much about this month.
March- At my job, I was taken out of molecular diagnostics and put in the department of hematology/urinalysis as this would be my permanent area of the lab when I became a medical technician. In approach to my 2 year anniversary, Matt and I started to come to rocky road. Although this time it was different. My suspicions were on high alert that something was developing b/w him and his manager. But all in all, we had our 2 year anniversary in NYC. We stayed overnight in a hotel over looking 7th ave, a broadway show, dinner, and ice skating. I had fun. He didn't seem too sure.
April- My 21st birthday. I couldn't have asked for a better one. All my friends in the same place getting along, getting drunk, for hours into the night was all I could ask for. I was the happiest 21 year old until 4 days later, when the hardest day of the year came. April 10th, 2008. My 2 year relationship with the boy I thought I was madly in love with, fell apart. It was my darkest day by far. I've never cried so much in my life. This piece of my life which broke off at the seams, I lost to another. Peacefully, we said goodbye. At the end of the month, I had a fall out. It came out to me that not only had I been lied to straight-faced for 2 years, but the manager he had been working with, along with Matt himself, both double crossed me and betrayed everything I believe in about love. They had began a working relationship behind my back before the exisiting one b/w matt and I ended. It was a cruel "make pretend" act on his new boyfriend's part to pretend to be my friend so that he could have what he was in it for for 3 months, Matt. And unfortunately, he succeeded. I was cheated on, lied to, betrayed, and heartbroken, in the matter of an hour. I never saw his face, or heard a word from him again.
May- This month began my road to recovery. I graduated with my associates degree from Farmingdale State and went on to do my summer internship. But my mind was no where focused on my career. My heart was in shambles inside my chest and I cried everynight fearing I would never see the day when my heart healed to the way it was before I met him. It was the month that I had discovered that I had made the biggest mistake ever asking for a relationship out of him. In an effort to get revenge, I tried to meet as many new people as possible and in turn, wound up rebounding with the first guy since Matt. It just felt so horribly wrong, I wasn't doing any good to myself, or my situation.
June- The summer's arrival helped things a little bit, but nothing to an extent of where I am now. I attempted to think that maybe if I see other people, that would be the gateway into getting my mind off Matt and on with someone else. But who was I kidding? I wasn't anywhere near over him. I saw it as my first summer without someone to share it with. So I resorted to the beach and tanning to take my mind off things.
July- I had finished my internship and my degree was finally completed. I resorted to a lot of music to help get me through my days, and this month, is when I began to feel the first stitch of my heart completed. I went on a few dates, nice guys, but unfortunately, nothing of interest. It was this month that I realized what I had wasted 2 years of my life with. He was like a disease that you couldn't rid. He was never once in love with me. And I took into account that my relationship was a learning experience. To never be too naive, and to always listen to your gut feeling. He taught me that I deserve so much better, and the next person to find me, will be someone special. And for the first time in 4 months, I felt I was able to celebrate that he wasn't part of my life anymore =)
August- My big summer getaway. Stephanie and I went to San Francisco for 5 days and it was just the vacation I needed. I had the time of my life, experiencing west coast culture, nightlife, restaurants, site seeing, everything. At this point I had begun talking to someone new, someone who showed a lot of promise when I came home.
September- School began again and I was on the road to start my journey towards my bachelor's degree in medical technology. It was shortly after I began, I discovered that the 4 year program wasn't going to be going into effect due to the turmoil in our economy. I was afraid my future was in jepordy and I needed to make a decision fast. I chose to leave Farmingdale at the end of the semester and take the spring and summer off to work full time, join a gym, occupy my mind, and save my money =) A year from now, my goal was to be accepted into the Physican Assistant Program at Toruo College in Bayshore. And in the start of this month, I began a relationship with someone new. The first new flame after the dirtbag.
October- So ok, big mistake, perhaps the new boy wasn't all what I thought. But that's ok...we move on. It was this month that I was so overjoyed to know that every emotion and feeling I had for my past had dissappeared into the wind, and I could smile knowing the day had finally arrived. I was finally healed again. And at the end of October, I passed my ASCP exam and I received my license to practice Medical Technology and attained my title as a Research Scientist Medical Technician in Hematology. My life had finally become amazing again. This month I traveled to FL again to go see one of my favorite bands, We the Kings, perform in concert at the House of Blues in Lake Beuna Vista. Turns out Tracey is friends w/ the lead singer Travis and it was awesome to meet him and take a few pics. Halloween this year was fun as well. Drunk party at Laura's house got me in the spirit of fall.
November- School was killing me. I couldn't wait to get out. But the only thing keeping me in the class I was doing poorly in was this group of people I took cell biology lab with. In a matter of a few week we all became really close friends and I'm happy that I was able to call them lab partners ha. One of them introduced me to her coworker at Ruby Tuesdays, Joey, who she said may be interested. I took the chance and met him. Things took off pretty fast and I developed a big crush on him.
December- Last month of 2008. *Present day* Right now, I'm sitting in my room. Shoes off, ready to go out and party with my new boyfriend Taylor. He came so suddenly in the mist of everything. Turns out Joey wasn't interested in a relationship and just agreed to be friends. In the slums of the news, Taylor came just in the nick of time. In just a matter of weeks, he became my rock. He showed me so many things like experiencing what a gay club is like. I've never been so comfortable in an atmosphere such as that. He's taught me to never care what other people think, and be comfortable with who you are, at all times, and in front of everyone. I feel like he's been the door waiting for me to walk into for years now. And this new years, it's going to be amazing. We're going back to Luxe, getting dressed up, and I'm going to ring in the new year's with someone I deserve to be with. And with someone who cares about me, just as much as I care about them. This holiday season has been the best one yet. Taking pics by the Rockafellar Tree, dinner dates in the city, New Years with just each other, I'm so excited to see what 2009 has to bring. And I think I've found the one to help make it the best start of the year. If any of you read this, you're fucking awesome. At last...I'm healed, I'm stronger, I'm wiser, and I'm happier.
This year was the road to recovery and the road to new beginnings. And in 3 hours, it will all be history.
Let's kick it 2009.
Happy New Year Everyone =)