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It's been forever since I've written anything blog related. The last time was- what? Like two or three years ago? Writing's nice, it's a whole lot better than speaking and it brings some kind of - for the lack of a better phrase - a good feeling to me. I like writing, words, even if mine aren't as extravagant.
Life's been hectic - great, even, if I wasn't lying to myself. I started afresh, well, as fresh as my pessimist self would have allowed. I made new friends, learnt new experience, developed a realisation, a new insight at life, got a peek at how life works. These two years obviously served as an important stage of pre-self-development. I've got a long way ahead and the road isn't even fully lit. The first step to adulthood is nearing, and it scares the fuck out of me. I'm starting to regret the fuck it all stride I've been sporting since forever. Maybe I should've cared. I'm not ready. I'm far from ready.
Everyone has got to go through this stage of life at least once in their life, don't they? It's weird when you've been all babied for a good part of your whole life and then suddenly you enter that age where everyone expects you to make life-changing decisions right there and then. It's amusing. Hilarious. The whole world is silently laughing at the absurdity of it all, I'm sure of it because I totally am. You'd think I've gone past the habit where I just laugh at everything but obviously I haven't because the world just doesn't give me the chance to.
It's sad. Extremely fucking sad that I can't stop laughing.
Well I digress, but all in all, I've sat SPM and I don't know what the fuck do I do now. Also, there's this thing called life and I don't know how to manage mine.
Life's been hectic - great, even, if I wasn't lying to myself. I started afresh, well, as fresh as my pessimist self would have allowed. I made new friends, learnt new experience, developed a realisation, a new insight at life, got a peek at how life works. These two years obviously served as an important stage of pre-self-development. I've got a long way ahead and the road isn't even fully lit. The first step to adulthood is nearing, and it scares the fuck out of me. I'm starting to regret the fuck it all stride I've been sporting since forever. Maybe I should've cared. I'm not ready. I'm far from ready.
Everyone has got to go through this stage of life at least once in their life, don't they? It's weird when you've been all babied for a good part of your whole life and then suddenly you enter that age where everyone expects you to make life-changing decisions right there and then. It's amusing. Hilarious. The whole world is silently laughing at the absurdity of it all, I'm sure of it because I totally am. You'd think I've gone past the habit where I just laugh at everything but obviously I haven't because the world just doesn't give me the chance to.
It's sad. Extremely fucking sad that I can't stop laughing.
Well I digress, but all in all, I've sat SPM and I don't know what the fuck do I do now. Also, there's this thing called life and I don't know how to manage mine.