Hate Everything!
My life is becoming shit, I hate the world, if I could rage out and kill everyone I would. On a lighter note I am quiting smoking on august 3rd, also coffee. from then on its only water and lemonaid, really going to do it this time, I always have the biggestkick in the ass for motivation when I am really hurt, well that is me now, I am going to do everything in my power and even more, to try my hardest to be everything "she" wanted, I don't know why, haven't figured it out yet, I was waiting for her, it was only proper, waiting and waiting, "she" left me, I drove her off, then I realized it was too late, I had inflicted the damage, and "she" had left, could we really be friends?, then yes, now no. dosen't matter anyway, shes gone to far away to matter anymore.
But as I sit here, empty, and alone. I wonder, why if she missed me so much, she did'nt at least try to come back, one word from her, one hint that she wanted to and it would be that way, mabey I need to prove myself first, mabey this entire thing is just a release for me, either way, it's my fault and despite what people say, I know when I think of her, now shes only the one that got away, but with more though"something I didn't do enough of" she was simply the one. I will always love you, but unless you come by to check my progress, you might as well not, I don't know what emotions would surface if I saw you, anyone else reading this, not aimed specificaly, agree or disagree you wern't there when the good noghts were there, the long talks about nothing and everything, followed by random unsure touches, the simple things, I lost sight of them and you, If what I said was confusing, thats ok, Im to upset to think straight, but whatevers out there its raw, and honest, for as much as I can let go. I love you.
But as I sit here, empty, and alone. I wonder, why if she missed me so much, she did'nt at least try to come back, one word from her, one hint that she wanted to and it would be that way, mabey I need to prove myself first, mabey this entire thing is just a release for me, either way, it's my fault and despite what people say, I know when I think of her, now shes only the one that got away, but with more though"something I didn't do enough of" she was simply the one. I will always love you, but unless you come by to check my progress, you might as well not, I don't know what emotions would surface if I saw you, anyone else reading this, not aimed specificaly, agree or disagree you wern't there when the good noghts were there, the long talks about nothing and everything, followed by random unsure touches, the simple things, I lost sight of them and you, If what I said was confusing, thats ok, Im to upset to think straight, but whatevers out there its raw, and honest, for as much as I can let go. I love you.