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I look back at some of the things I let become huge problems in my life, and think "that was nothing compared to what's happening now", and then I think, "maybe in the future, this will seem like nothing. What happened then made me stronger, but is this going to do the same, or will it be the thing to finally kill me? What if I get through this, only to find the next thing is even bigger?" I'm scared of the future, I feel like I've lost everything, or at least lost control of everything, just in the past couple of weeks... the shop, my car, my relationship, money, friendships. Don't know how much longer I can cope with this, let alone pull myself out of it. I have a lot of problems to face, and I'm scared of facing them alone.