on or off
I'm so depressed. I don't know how to deal other than to try to restrict and exercise. If I don't succeed for a day or week or month then I just feel like such a failure. Having control over calories in calories out is the only thing that gives me any satisfaction. why is that? Is it because it is so hard with my crazy schedule and my ridiculous health problems? You would think that the crazy diet I have to be on is good enough, but NO, I'm always perfecting it trying to finally come up with one that will finally end this weight loss game. How come everyone else can do it? How are these young girls staying so thin? I want to be them so badly. I really really do.