awesome weekend
soo i havent updated in awhile, might as well. lets see, last saturday was awesome, i skied at sunday river that day and then that night on the spur of the moment i decided to do something with the grey goose that wes bought me for my birthday so i threw a small coctail preparty for a bunch of my girlfriends. then i went up to hillside for a bit and chilled with melyn and steph and then i went to the coffeehouse show, naftali avari.. it was good but i was just in the mood for peppy music and it was a little too mellow at that time. then i went back to hillside and as soon as i walked in the room like 5 people were like 'alex!! yay!' and at that point i knew that i had great friends who really appreciate my company. after spending time there i left with nicole and scotty and went to an awesome party in johnson until security busted it up. after that we wandered around campus having a great time and wreaking hell.
on sunday i drove back home by myself and spent the night in boston at mit. it went alright, nothing special, i mean it was a sunday night after all, but linc and i had another good talk. i dont really know what is going on anymore and ive pretty much almost given up on trying to figure out what i want. part of me feels like we are already in a sort of relationship because we talk online for about an hour each day, but at the same time i dont really want to be in a long-distance relationship, and im not even sure that if i did want to be in one if i'd want to start dating him. part of me feels like it is a step backward considering that was high school, but part of me sees us potentially dating after we get out of school and seeing how far that'd take us. i just dont know anymore and i dont know what i want right now becuase i will be seeing him alot in the next two months and then i wont see him at all the second semester because i wont be coming home much if at all after i leave for colby in january, so starting something seems pointless. i also realize that i dont have the same feelings for him that i used to and that though he has matured emotionally with his insight i feel like linc has lost his social skills, most likely because he has been surrounded by people who lack them as well.. anyway im done with my rant
monday i went to a U2 concert with Tash which was soo good, aside from the fact that everyone was shitfaced and falling down the stairs. then monday i drove back up to colby and have been working ever since, though everything is done now thank GOD. i spent 8 hours in the library yesterday working on my 12 page anthro paper and sociology project and spanish paper.. which are DONE now! anyway, so ready for the weekend and LOUDNESS but not psyched about the UNDERCOVER COPS! yeah. im not getting caught.. stupid waterville PD thinks we have a drinking problem.. of course we do ITS COLLEGE! ugh. okay im exausted and need to go to bed now, still stressed for some reason and in desperate need of massage. we'll see about that. well i hope you enjoyed my massive update cause thats all i got for now.
on sunday i drove back home by myself and spent the night in boston at mit. it went alright, nothing special, i mean it was a sunday night after all, but linc and i had another good talk. i dont really know what is going on anymore and ive pretty much almost given up on trying to figure out what i want. part of me feels like we are already in a sort of relationship because we talk online for about an hour each day, but at the same time i dont really want to be in a long-distance relationship, and im not even sure that if i did want to be in one if i'd want to start dating him. part of me feels like it is a step backward considering that was high school, but part of me sees us potentially dating after we get out of school and seeing how far that'd take us. i just dont know anymore and i dont know what i want right now becuase i will be seeing him alot in the next two months and then i wont see him at all the second semester because i wont be coming home much if at all after i leave for colby in january, so starting something seems pointless. i also realize that i dont have the same feelings for him that i used to and that though he has matured emotionally with his insight i feel like linc has lost his social skills, most likely because he has been surrounded by people who lack them as well.. anyway im done with my rant
monday i went to a U2 concert with Tash which was soo good, aside from the fact that everyone was shitfaced and falling down the stairs. then monday i drove back up to colby and have been working ever since, though everything is done now thank GOD. i spent 8 hours in the library yesterday working on my 12 page anthro paper and sociology project and spanish paper.. which are DONE now! anyway, so ready for the weekend and LOUDNESS but not psyched about the UNDERCOVER COPS! yeah. im not getting caught.. stupid waterville PD thinks we have a drinking problem.. of course we do ITS COLLEGE! ugh. okay im exausted and need to go to bed now, still stressed for some reason and in desperate need of massage. we'll see about that. well i hope you enjoyed my massive update cause thats all i got for now.