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this summer fucking sucked.
i mean, maybe i shouldn't have had high expectations because last summer was so good.
but at least this summer could have been a LITTLE better than it was.
i don't feel like i did ANYTHING.
we didn't go to michigan, after planning for like 2 fucking weeks and taking a shitload of time to get DUMBASS PLANE TICKETS. and we didn't even get to fucking go.
the only person that made anything good was kevin, and now he's gone. the only good thing is gone.
i'm trying to learn how to deal with it, but it's so hard. and none of my friends get it at all. they usually don't. like there's going to be times i can't see him for 2 weeks. how am i supposed to do that? i am going to die. i'm trying to be okay for him, but i don't know how it's going to happen. i hate change. it's going to take a lot to adjust.
why did it have to go so fast?
i mean i turned sixteen, and there were a few other good things but not enough to make a great summer, let alone a pretty good one.
now i only have one day of summer left, and i feel like shit.
i am pathetic and testy lately and all i do is cry.
SUMMER IS NOT FOR FUCKING CRYING
i just want to get this over with.
i cannot go to school.
I CAN'T DO ITTTT
i'd rather be here than there. i am not going to survive junior year, especially with this stupid summer behind me.
fuck all of this.
i'm just in a terrible mood.
i mean, maybe i shouldn't have had high expectations because last summer was so good.
but at least this summer could have been a LITTLE better than it was.
i don't feel like i did ANYTHING.
we didn't go to michigan, after planning for like 2 fucking weeks and taking a shitload of time to get DUMBASS PLANE TICKETS. and we didn't even get to fucking go.
the only person that made anything good was kevin, and now he's gone. the only good thing is gone.
i'm trying to learn how to deal with it, but it's so hard. and none of my friends get it at all. they usually don't. like there's going to be times i can't see him for 2 weeks. how am i supposed to do that? i am going to die. i'm trying to be okay for him, but i don't know how it's going to happen. i hate change. it's going to take a lot to adjust.
why did it have to go so fast?
i mean i turned sixteen, and there were a few other good things but not enough to make a great summer, let alone a pretty good one.
now i only have one day of summer left, and i feel like shit.
i am pathetic and testy lately and all i do is cry.
SUMMER IS NOT FOR FUCKING CRYING
i just want to get this over with.
i cannot go to school.
I CAN'T DO ITTTT
i'd rather be here than there. i am not going to survive junior year, especially with this stupid summer behind me.
fuck all of this.
i'm just in a terrible mood.