May 12, 2006 01:08
I guess over time, I'll be able to do this. I'm strong enough. It's just annoying that I have to lose the best friend I've ever had for absolutely no reason. Merely because things change. I don't blame her though. It's not her fault. I still love her. But hopefully, soon, it will be a different kind of love. The kind that real best friends have. She's just so great. Maybe I'm only thinking of the good times, we've definitely had some good times. We've had some really crappy times, too, but those only made the good times better.
As you can see, I'm really struggling with this. It'll all work out. I just don't understand why'd you'd prefer it this way. We were so much fun.
Oh well. Life after the fall was never supposed to be good. It's supposed to be rough as possible. I'll just learn to make the best of it.