confidential informant
currently:
-interested in concepts of the human web, "six degrees of separation," ect.(influenced by chat with mother about LOST theories and today's state of mind consisting of considering every philosophy [i have] [come] across.)
-wanting job at kidney foundation community thrift. (located beside huge and baffling asian food market.)
-127lbs( yes! been fluctuating between 125-132lbs since november. finally out of some-what fatty 2-year carapice.)
-still feverish, most likely from eating yard-fresh snow cone. (yes, i know i am no longer four-years old but excitement and svedka/orange juice overtook myself and coon due to the fact it never, ever, ever snows in charleston. (i most likely consumed pesticides and many other chemicals that i still feel trying to work their ways out of my body.))
-chain smoking. (marlboro special blend? i thought i said lights. they do come in practically the same box though.)
-astro.com-ing. (adding david's information and when did they start just giving you a flash of seemingly insightful horoscopic information then sending you to a link to pay? psh.)
-thinking about moving to charlotte, north carolina. (with david to get our life together a-going: having cheaper apartment/house rent, car, easier job access, new beginnings...,ect.)
-hoping that unfortunate mother-fucker does not go to jail. (at all or even for extended amount of time (30 days or more) and remembering court dates are directly after my birthday: march 22nd in charlotte and march 26th in charleston.)
-being very parenthetical. (i think this is due to the fact that i am, actually, if you can be described as, "parenthetical". i'm the small print; ambiguous; you have to dig and think about what i am actually saying because i'm weird or not "up-front" in direct conversation (this coming from other peoples' description about the way i talk) i'm "if you get my meaning" unintentionally. this is at time a very bad habit for me to have it seems. at times. whatever.)
-thirsty. (drank too much coffee and tea today. need water.)
-reflecting: today was beautiful (drove around in the perfect weather (maybe a little cold or too windy) listening to shoegazer-type music and lost in deep-thought.) last night was a plethora of mixed emotions and incidents with david and others (screaming, fighting, meeting-up, watching basketball, ice cream and soup-ing, making up, getting sick again and having sex.)
-also reflecting: sex is the cure-all. (for me, may it be sickness, i.e. cotton fever, headache, being too drunk, hangovers, coming down, restlessness, dope-sickness and/or after fighting, not having any plans for the night, realizing you made a bad movie choice.)
-recurring incident of george harrison songs are stuck in my head. ("isn't it a pity"and "i got my mind set on you" and so-on.
-not worrying about or checking all my e-mail replies and voicemails from sending out my resume and posting it to possibly every job-hunting website in the united states of america. (was very dedicated until i realized i could grab every job i sent my resume to. sharing the jeep with my mom is hindering me unless it's a job she would love for me to have, like the thrift store one.)
-knowing that goddam thrift store is the best one within one-hundred miles
-RIDICULOUS
-going to read james joyce right now. (because i can't fuck david because i'm at my parents house.)
-going to stop all this RIDICULOUSNESS.
-not going to spell check, check my grammar or any of that damn shit.
-"shut up woman and get on my horse." (WTF.)
-interested in concepts of the human web, "six degrees of separation," ect.(influenced by chat with mother about LOST theories and today's state of mind consisting of considering every philosophy [i have] [come] across.)
-wanting job at kidney foundation community thrift. (located beside huge and baffling asian food market.)
-127lbs( yes! been fluctuating between 125-132lbs since november. finally out of some-what fatty 2-year carapice.)
-still feverish, most likely from eating yard-fresh snow cone. (yes, i know i am no longer four-years old but excitement and svedka/orange juice overtook myself and coon due to the fact it never, ever, ever snows in charleston. (i most likely consumed pesticides and many other chemicals that i still feel trying to work their ways out of my body.))
-chain smoking. (marlboro special blend? i thought i said lights. they do come in practically the same box though.)
-astro.com-ing. (adding david's information and when did they start just giving you a flash of seemingly insightful horoscopic information then sending you to a link to pay? psh.)
-thinking about moving to charlotte, north carolina. (with david to get our life together a-going: having cheaper apartment/house rent, car, easier job access, new beginnings...,ect.)
-hoping that unfortunate mother-fucker does not go to jail. (at all or even for extended amount of time (30 days or more) and remembering court dates are directly after my birthday: march 22nd in charlotte and march 26th in charleston.)
-being very parenthetical. (i think this is due to the fact that i am, actually, if you can be described as, "parenthetical". i'm the small print; ambiguous; you have to dig and think about what i am actually saying because i'm weird or not "up-front" in direct conversation (this coming from other peoples' description about the way i talk) i'm "if you get my meaning" unintentionally. this is at time a very bad habit for me to have it seems. at times. whatever.)
-thirsty. (drank too much coffee and tea today. need water.)
-reflecting: today was beautiful (drove around in the perfect weather (maybe a little cold or too windy) listening to shoegazer-type music and lost in deep-thought.) last night was a plethora of mixed emotions and incidents with david and others (screaming, fighting, meeting-up, watching basketball, ice cream and soup-ing, making up, getting sick again and having sex.)
-also reflecting: sex is the cure-all. (for me, may it be sickness, i.e. cotton fever, headache, being too drunk, hangovers, coming down, restlessness, dope-sickness and/or after fighting, not having any plans for the night, realizing you made a bad movie choice.)
-recurring incident of george harrison songs are stuck in my head. ("isn't it a pity"and "i got my mind set on you" and so-on.
-not worrying about or checking all my e-mail replies and voicemails from sending out my resume and posting it to possibly every job-hunting website in the united states of america. (was very dedicated until i realized i could grab every job i sent my resume to. sharing the jeep with my mom is hindering me unless it's a job she would love for me to have, like the thrift store one.)
-knowing that goddam thrift store is the best one within one-hundred miles
-RIDICULOUS
-going to read james joyce right now. (because i can't fuck david because i'm at my parents house.)
-going to stop all this RIDICULOUSNESS.
-not going to spell check, check my grammar or any of that damn shit.
-"shut up woman and get on my horse." (WTF.)