at midnight, in torrential downpour.
i'm so happy. i didn't think it was possible to be this happy. especially this soon. i'm so happy that i can't wait to get up in the morning! (even though i still like to sleep). i love the people i work with, both in my building and at my internship. i feel like i'm finally working up to my potential. my classes all seem doable, my professors approachable. i'm loving every second of my life; i feel closer with my family even though i'm far away. i'm out of shape, but i'm working on changing that. i'm really just in shock that i could be happy without feeling guilty. i don't feel guilty at all, i feel i don't know redeemed? something of the sort. i laugh everyday and sleep through the night. i haven't cried since i've been here, about anything. i'm saying i fell the other day on my ass and i didn't even cry. i feel blessed everyday with the people who are in my life, both the ones who play a major role and a minor role. this is a really annoying post but i wanted to just put it down so i wouldn't forget that i was happy.