i feel like it's over....
ok. well it's been a while...
you all know that shieanne quit miss donnas. i knew for a week that she probably wasn't coming back but it wasn't until i got her text message that reality hit me. that she actually wasnt coming back. i went upstairs and cried...and cried...and cried. i thought i would never stop. it was horrible. i went to school the next day and told haeley and i almost started crying yet again. she told me it was ok and tried to make me feel better. let me just say nothing anybody said made me feel any better...
everyone knows shieanne and i are like 2 peas in a pod. whenever we were together we never left each others sides. you always saw each other together no matter what. i see shieanne as my sister. i honestly have never had a friend like shieanne. yea i have a couple close friends but none are like her. you know how you usually get into fights with your friends or you get aggravated with them? well i dont think theres ever been a time where that is true with me and shieanne. we've always been close and i pray that that isn't going to change. me and haeley are close and i love her to death but we've had our fights and yes, sometimes we find things more important than our friendship and we're not always there for each other. but when i am around shieanne i feel that i can be myself and she wont think im an idiot no matter what i do. shes most definitely ALWAYS there for me and helps me....theres a part of me that feels empty now that she left miss donnas. and i dont know what to do about it.
well on saturday shieanne came up and surprised me for lunch. i think its the best surprise ive ever had in my life. i couldnt stop thanking my mom the whole day. see, shieanne's mom and shieanne and my mom all knew about it and they kept it a secret from me. nice huh? i love them all. and so i think they will come eat lunch with us atleast once every month so we can still see each other. i can't thank them enough. yep and when i saw her i did a double take cuz i really didnt expect them to be there. and then we bashed our knees ((well not really...they just hit)) and now i have a bruise. but its ok. cuz i saw my sdc.
hopefully she will come back to donnas next season. starting august. it seems so far away too. but she has 2 competitions with us so i will get to see her. im so excited. i can't wait. it will be so weird dancing on stage without her. especially when she stands right next to me.
yesterday was hard during small group cuz we kept talking about who was gunna take her spot. we finally decided on lea. i think it will be good but i really didnt want anyone taking her spot. hopefully things will work out....
everyone kept asking how i was yesterday and telling me that they loved me and were always here for me. i think its funny how they didnt really ask how anyone else was...just me. its cuz we were so close.
i really hope shiney comes back next year or i might quit. cuz my only real friends at donnas is shiney and jackie. and jackie is leaving next year cuz shes a senior. ill be all alone. idk how i will do it. now dont get me wrong...i love all of you at donnas its just im not as close to you as i am with shiney and jackie. idk...i want to cry.
shieanne...i just want you to know that i love you more than any of my friends ((and thats the truth)). thanks for always being there for me. and idk what i will do next time i feel like crying at dance...cuz you were always there to say "don't worry about it...thats just how she is". ill prolly break down right there ((hope not)). i love all our jokes and stories we have. i can't wait to see you again ((hopefully on the 18th...yay! bring junie b ok?)) you are my world and i hope that we will always be best friends and nothing less. ily. more than you know. <3 <3 <3
you all know that shieanne quit miss donnas. i knew for a week that she probably wasn't coming back but it wasn't until i got her text message that reality hit me. that she actually wasnt coming back. i went upstairs and cried...and cried...and cried. i thought i would never stop. it was horrible. i went to school the next day and told haeley and i almost started crying yet again. she told me it was ok and tried to make me feel better. let me just say nothing anybody said made me feel any better...
everyone knows shieanne and i are like 2 peas in a pod. whenever we were together we never left each others sides. you always saw each other together no matter what. i see shieanne as my sister. i honestly have never had a friend like shieanne. yea i have a couple close friends but none are like her. you know how you usually get into fights with your friends or you get aggravated with them? well i dont think theres ever been a time where that is true with me and shieanne. we've always been close and i pray that that isn't going to change. me and haeley are close and i love her to death but we've had our fights and yes, sometimes we find things more important than our friendship and we're not always there for each other. but when i am around shieanne i feel that i can be myself and she wont think im an idiot no matter what i do. shes most definitely ALWAYS there for me and helps me....theres a part of me that feels empty now that she left miss donnas. and i dont know what to do about it.
well on saturday shieanne came up and surprised me for lunch. i think its the best surprise ive ever had in my life. i couldnt stop thanking my mom the whole day. see, shieanne's mom and shieanne and my mom all knew about it and they kept it a secret from me. nice huh? i love them all. and so i think they will come eat lunch with us atleast once every month so we can still see each other. i can't thank them enough. yep and when i saw her i did a double take cuz i really didnt expect them to be there. and then we bashed our knees ((well not really...they just hit)) and now i have a bruise. but its ok. cuz i saw my sdc.
hopefully she will come back to donnas next season. starting august. it seems so far away too. but she has 2 competitions with us so i will get to see her. im so excited. i can't wait. it will be so weird dancing on stage without her. especially when she stands right next to me.
yesterday was hard during small group cuz we kept talking about who was gunna take her spot. we finally decided on lea. i think it will be good but i really didnt want anyone taking her spot. hopefully things will work out....
everyone kept asking how i was yesterday and telling me that they loved me and were always here for me. i think its funny how they didnt really ask how anyone else was...just me. its cuz we were so close.
i really hope shiney comes back next year or i might quit. cuz my only real friends at donnas is shiney and jackie. and jackie is leaving next year cuz shes a senior. ill be all alone. idk how i will do it. now dont get me wrong...i love all of you at donnas its just im not as close to you as i am with shiney and jackie. idk...i want to cry.
shieanne...i just want you to know that i love you more than any of my friends ((and thats the truth)). thanks for always being there for me. and idk what i will do next time i feel like crying at dance...cuz you were always there to say "don't worry about it...thats just how she is". ill prolly break down right there ((hope not)). i love all our jokes and stories we have. i can't wait to see you again ((hopefully on the 18th...yay! bring junie b ok?)) you are my world and i hope that we will always be best friends and nothing less. ily. more than you know. <3 <3 <3