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Today was real laid back.We talked all day but it didn't feel the same as last night.I think I know why ;D Soo it turns out you knew about how I still felt about him & how I still feel.Had a very short but very useful chat with an old friend, thank you sooo much.I broke down, I realized how much I still "miss you".I always have to open my mouth when things are going good.What am I soo scared about?Why is it that every time I get what I want I push it away?Why do I go out of town every time things are working out try to run away?Why is it when i'm scared I don't answer my phone?Why do I hide behind all my problems?Why is it every time things are going good I want you to get in the way?I want summer to be over already.As stupid as that sounds it's true, I keep myself busy all day & then instead of sleeping I stay up & think.And then the same thing day after day.I stopped liking a lot of things I used to looooove because of you.Why didn't I see it coming?I miss our ways of conversing even though they weren't the most intellectual conversations, it was real.I thought twice about posting this entry but decided that you to read it.I let all my aggression out let me tell you it wasn't pretty, that's why I called it an early night today.I didn't go to YABA today but i think yesterday made up for it.