Sustained by her faith
Today was good.I blocked all my ways of communication....it was great.Cheerleading is waaayy to long, 3 hours.To top it off Tomorrow she wants us to go in the morning from 10-12 & in the afternoon from 5:30-7:30. Today driver's ed was 3 hours instead of 2, also tomorrow, it turns out they're going to be closed for the 4th of July.It doesn't help that I fall asleep an hour before I have to wake up every night.I can't stop the same thing from playing in my head, I keep asking myself what If I would have done things differently...would it have worked out?Well I can't change the past.As much as I hate to admit it I miss you, even though we disagree for sundry reasons.Soo yeah anyways It's been a year since my mother "left", I really wish I could talk to her right now everytime I visited her I would forget everything about this place since she lived so far.I've been thinking about my grandpa the past few days & I brokedown because I know he & my mother wouldn't like to see me like this.My dad's been real sick lately he gets it every six months, and I have to admit i scares me because it's not something that can heal like a cold or anything like that.Wow you know me better than I know myself.Every day I've been realizing something different.Yeahh well it looks like I won't be attending church camp this year, I don't think anybody is going except for Josh, butI'm really considering Beach Bash.This entr is verrry long so I guess that's it.
<3 Jen
<3 Jen