the sands of time, for me, are running low...

[think_of_stars]

i had a fucked up dream last night. i was seriously dying. it wasnt an actual dream. i was awake. a tingly sensation was running throughout my body. i couldnt move. i tried so hard. i couldnt move. i could look around. 3:21 am. i could hear everything. my air cleaner. i felt my chest. inhaling and exhaling. yet i wasnt getting any air. i wasnt breathing even though all the functions were apparent and working fine. i was scared shitless. then i was trying to yell for my dad. i couldnt hear myself. just my air cleaner. i was freaking out. i was trying so hard. no sound was coming out. no movement. then i just laid there helpless. crying. i was seriously about to die. i thought i was. then i guess i fell alseep and when i woke up, my eyes were covered in dried tears.

i guess you will never feel the same way i do...