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i love work.
but then i dont.
i hate not being home and missing out on things i SHOULD be apart of.
im not anymore and when i come home for good,
its not gonna be like before. it never was
really anything but once im gone it turns
into something? idk. and then to top it off
i dont get to see my friends every day any
more cuz of fucking school. so that sucks.
im loosing friends in a way? but not really.
id ont know how to explain it.
but i love it. i have the sweetest friends who
are just awesome and funny to be around. its
great that we laugh at a kid falling on a stick
and we know what eachother is thinking when a
certain person does something and all we have to
do it look at eachother and crack up. its great.
and then theres a boy. i like him. alot. and he
likes me i hope. we go in the staff lounge on
breaks and just lay on the couch(sp) just like,
idk doing nothing. and we stay behind the bathroom
until 3 am just talking about absolutely nothing
gettin wet from the grass and being cold but like,
not wanting to leave. lookni at the stars. idk.
but sometimes i think theres no way he could like
me. hes wayyyyy too cute. he could prolly get any
girl he tried for so why would he like me? we go to
the beach with the camp and there are 3 gorgeous girls.
swear to God perfect bodies and pretty hair and faces
and obviously he looks at them. idk i dont feel pretty
enough for him to like me, but then he does and says
cute things to confused me. idk i feel like an idiot
but idk. he left me "love, your secret admirirer" notes
with candy on my pillow and it made me smile. he likes
my curly hair down? haha hes crazy. but when i come
up from the horse corral all sweaty smelling like horse
shit and looking sick as all hell he still likes to touch
my face and smile at me? idk.
i need a lisa conversation about this.
but then i dont.
i hate not being home and missing out on things i SHOULD be apart of.
im not anymore and when i come home for good,
its not gonna be like before. it never was
really anything but once im gone it turns
into something? idk. and then to top it off
i dont get to see my friends every day any
more cuz of fucking school. so that sucks.
im loosing friends in a way? but not really.
id ont know how to explain it.
but i love it. i have the sweetest friends who
are just awesome and funny to be around. its
great that we laugh at a kid falling on a stick
and we know what eachother is thinking when a
certain person does something and all we have to
do it look at eachother and crack up. its great.
and then theres a boy. i like him. alot. and he
likes me i hope. we go in the staff lounge on
breaks and just lay on the couch(sp) just like,
idk doing nothing. and we stay behind the bathroom
until 3 am just talking about absolutely nothing
gettin wet from the grass and being cold but like,
not wanting to leave. lookni at the stars. idk.
but sometimes i think theres no way he could like
me. hes wayyyyy too cute. he could prolly get any
girl he tried for so why would he like me? we go to
the beach with the camp and there are 3 gorgeous girls.
swear to God perfect bodies and pretty hair and faces
and obviously he looks at them. idk i dont feel pretty
enough for him to like me, but then he does and says
cute things to confused me. idk i feel like an idiot
but idk. he left me "love, your secret admirirer" notes
with candy on my pillow and it made me smile. he likes
my curly hair down? haha hes crazy. but when i come
up from the horse corral all sweaty smelling like horse
shit and looking sick as all hell he still likes to touch
my face and smile at me? idk.
i need a lisa conversation about this.