This week has been exhausting
I'm not sure where to start this time around. I'm atwitter because of what I intend to do this friday, dissappointed from what happened yesterday, and frustrated by what happened today. Oh yeah some of my clients are being prissy brats. I dont mind that with ym clients, but this week, it's just a bit more aggravating than normal.
First thing, I showed off the engagement ring to my mom and aunt yesterday. I dint get the reaction of joy and happiness that I was kind of expecting. I got a " The really expensive diamonds are white!" from my aunt, and a comment about how an engagement wouldnt be official until the parents are introduced and we would go through an engagement ceremony. Which them prompted my aunt to say that would be the time to present the ring to her.
So it was a fucking dud to even talk to them about it. It's pretty typical of them to dash things like that for me. But there is that major factor of how we see things is very significantly different. Nonetheless it's still a bitter dissapointment and I have gotten used to it, it just hurts more because of the significance.
Something typical that has been happening lately is that we invite Ben to eat dinner with us on Wednesday. So after dnner she and I retire to my room to chill and hang out for some pg rated fun, and for no discernable reason she just starts tearing up. Usually when this happens I talk with her about what is going on and it's cool. Today, she just tears up over and over, blowing her nose with not a single word to explain what is going on. She does this for two hours. I'm attempting to be attentive to her needs, but she keeps on tearing up. Eventually I pull out of her that she has to put it together in her head and figure things out. Half an hour later, she's still tearing up. It's one of the most aggravating things that she does when she's upset, since I talk my way through being upset, she clams up. So I end up staring at her for all of this time. It was getting late and I shoo her off to home so we could both get some rest.
If she said something then we could figure it out and get some of it off of her chest, but she keeps her cards tight to herself and I have no chance to get to the core of what was going on. It drives me up the goddamn wall.
Along with this, there have been some pretty brutal shootings around in Baltimroe that have been happening lately. One of which affects one of my clients, so now she is even battier than normal.
It's late and I'm tired and this is all just sitting on my head. Gotta te some deep breathes, read a bit and focus on resting well and being up for tomorrow.
First thing, I showed off the engagement ring to my mom and aunt yesterday. I dint get the reaction of joy and happiness that I was kind of expecting. I got a " The really expensive diamonds are white!" from my aunt, and a comment about how an engagement wouldnt be official until the parents are introduced and we would go through an engagement ceremony. Which them prompted my aunt to say that would be the time to present the ring to her.
So it was a fucking dud to even talk to them about it. It's pretty typical of them to dash things like that for me. But there is that major factor of how we see things is very significantly different. Nonetheless it's still a bitter dissapointment and I have gotten used to it, it just hurts more because of the significance.
Something typical that has been happening lately is that we invite Ben to eat dinner with us on Wednesday. So after dnner she and I retire to my room to chill and hang out for some pg rated fun, and for no discernable reason she just starts tearing up. Usually when this happens I talk with her about what is going on and it's cool. Today, she just tears up over and over, blowing her nose with not a single word to explain what is going on. She does this for two hours. I'm attempting to be attentive to her needs, but she keeps on tearing up. Eventually I pull out of her that she has to put it together in her head and figure things out. Half an hour later, she's still tearing up. It's one of the most aggravating things that she does when she's upset, since I talk my way through being upset, she clams up. So I end up staring at her for all of this time. It was getting late and I shoo her off to home so we could both get some rest.
If she said something then we could figure it out and get some of it off of her chest, but she keeps her cards tight to herself and I have no chance to get to the core of what was going on. It drives me up the goddamn wall.
Along with this, there have been some pretty brutal shootings around in Baltimroe that have been happening lately. One of which affects one of my clients, so now she is even battier than normal.
It's late and I'm tired and this is all just sitting on my head. Gotta te some deep breathes, read a bit and focus on resting well and being up for tomorrow.