life sucks ass
this day has royal sucked ass big time...clayton i dont know i think he doesnt know what he wants i just dont know i really miss what we had but i know that we could have what we had again ive hurt him mant times and he crushed my heart lately with all the bullshit about cris and after what happen today i just dont know what to do with him i still have feelings for he but i cant stand just being friends with him anymore and knowing that he found somebody new that he really cares about yeah i know i said hateful and it seems im not happy for him but i am i just hate knowing that we will never have what we used to i just couldnt... why??? because i cant trust him anymore and i dont think he can either and that is what every realtionship is built around but i feel really fucking stupid typing this so i got to go
~dumb fuck~
~dumb fuck~