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life is exciting but confusing.
1. I have so much trouble balancing the political/intellectual things in my life with any type of social life. Everytime I get drunk or something I feel so stupid for not having been at my house reading a book, which is dumb because i dont even read that many books at my house. Also i feel like me caring about things often becomes a liability more than anything else. Obviously I have totally freaked out at a few people, or done really stupid stuff in the past year or so, and have acted really unfairly and been judgemental. But I also feel like situations happen where I am frusterated that I dont do more. I dont know how to do it really.
2. Some specific things about breakups sometimes make me feel like people think I am really grumpy/mean/negative as a person, and I have been really trying to make sure I dont identify myself as that, and that I dont come off that way. I am sweet. Really!
3. f-to-m trans guy on the bus in SF being really rude and loud about this really nervous dork guy not looking enough like a man= WTF???
4. Some one who doesnt live in sj, let me stay at your house for a few days inbetween after christmas and jan 23!
1. I have so much trouble balancing the political/intellectual things in my life with any type of social life. Everytime I get drunk or something I feel so stupid for not having been at my house reading a book, which is dumb because i dont even read that many books at my house. Also i feel like me caring about things often becomes a liability more than anything else. Obviously I have totally freaked out at a few people, or done really stupid stuff in the past year or so, and have acted really unfairly and been judgemental. But I also feel like situations happen where I am frusterated that I dont do more. I dont know how to do it really.
2. Some specific things about breakups sometimes make me feel like people think I am really grumpy/mean/negative as a person, and I have been really trying to make sure I dont identify myself as that, and that I dont come off that way. I am sweet. Really!
3. f-to-m trans guy on the bus in SF being really rude and loud about this really nervous dork guy not looking enough like a man= WTF???
4. Some one who doesnt live in sj, let me stay at your house for a few days inbetween after christmas and jan 23!