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after last christmas i have officially become a scrooge. i do not look forward to it, in fact i quiet loathe the whole season. i am tired of people trying to correct my solitary life right now. you are doing me no favors by pressuring me to date someone. i dont want a relationship right now and frivilous sex as grand as it sounds comes with more burdens than a relationship sometimes. i dunno where i am going with this... i feel like i can talk to people outside of my bubble, the few of you who still read this that i have lost contact with, familiar strangers... there is more to say but it has been too long. i am not so comfortable here anymore.

its 1 am... i got therapy tomorrow, but i want coffee... i want good company... long lost childhood friends...