how about i deligate you shutting the fuck up...

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work was really great all day. even though it was a total cluster fuck and way too many people asked me to do shit because the other tellers arent even close to truely compitent. i was so burnt out at the end of the day but i was still happy. that happiness turned to shit because my asst gave me shit about deligating my lesser duties. i guess that somehow i am no longer the lowest man on the totem pole and i am allowed to share my work load. apparently i was just supposed to come to this discovery on my own and the fact that i didnt was totally unbelivable to her. man what a fucking idiot i am! no one told me i have some level of authority and i didnt use it.... what a tool!
on a wierd side note:
there is a blue wrist band wrapped round my gear shifter thingy (you can tell i really know cars).
you know the little rubber neon bands that has become the heart of grocery store charity?
yeah i got a little blue one that says "HOPE"
it is sitting at the base of the shaft all twisted and abandoned
apparently my mother and trellis got it from a vending machine and tossed it in my car
i guess trellis wanted the "bling bling" necklace rather than the mock charity band
what the fuck do i need that for?
Hope?
hope for what?
do i look like a person who has hope right now?
fuck "hope" and the horse it rode in on...

i deleted a post a couple days back. i decided against letting people read it because i thought that it would ruin some disalusioned hope that some how i would get the apology naturally... i have since buried that hope but i have doubts about reposting it. i saved the text. not sure why but i did.

it is friday i need something to do and someone to hang out with...