...and fuck it
i had a dream last night where i am spinning down this monsterous throat i go down and down and down and my chest swells and i cant breath and i cant scream and when i land in the bile at the bottom i cant swim and i begin to drown and i scramble and scramble until a hand reaches me and pulls me out into a dark room. and there we are staring at eachother and they spit at me glare and i can hear their thoughts and their hate and disappointment and rage and disgust flings me back into the bile and i sink deeper and deeper in this black green water. and even though i am drowning i can still see their face and when i see those eyes i give up and just let myself sink.