Day 10
i hate being the fat one. i'm on day 10 and i'm still a fat ass, guys what am i doing wrong??! i just dont get it. i'm hitting the gym this afternoon and taking diet pills. i bought a new digital camera last evening and took photos me...i was in shock, what i saw didn't even resemble me. i wonder how my girlfriend is still attracted to me.i need to take drastic measures, it uncomfortable to live in your own skin when you hate who you are! not to be a downer, i just hate being fat
yesterday all i had was soup for lunch, garlic black tiger shrimp, seafood, like two bites of wholewheat spaghetti with no sauce, 2 porkchops (i should've had one....) and then an avocado bubble tea as a snack when we went to the mall made with fresh fruit. oh wait, i had a pepsi and a snickers chocolate bar (period cravings...CHOCOLATE) and i drank green tea + water. i guess thats not good enough huh. fat is stubborn. i had toast for breakfast and i won't eat anything else today although i may have salmon and spinach for dinner if i'm truly starving after the gym. i'm such a big fat ass. i can't wait to melt it off.
hope u guys are making better progress than my pathetic self. <3
stay strong, starve long . -m
==UPDATE == 12:28AM
hey everyone, hope you guys stayed strong and away from temptation. uggh. i didn't today i B/P and purged my pizza. so gross. i hate the days we order pizza, i hate pizza but if i dont eat it they wont buy it so im trying not to be a bitch because im trying to buy an iPod Touch so being a huge suckup!!!
anyway, when i suck in my stomach and wear a lot of makeup i feel a little bit better. *sigh*.
-m