fuQ all journaLz
what the deal?! i`m here listening to my spanish musica .. i love me some spanish music, as a matter a fact my mother was like "whats all this with spanish music now" .. man but some of them songs be making me drop a tear and shiet .. lol well i guess a lot of people are moving from livejournal to ujournal maybe this will be the one now lol cause lj fuQed up by doing that shiet menq ... on another stupid note, today right church people came and what not and today was like kids day righ and so whatever my mom went out yesterday while we were home with my uncle and shiet and she hid everything she bought them .. what the fuck is she hiding shiet for? ummz i think we old enough to see that shiet right .. so whatever i wake up in the morning she putting all this NEW shit up and everything i was like umm i thought u said u aint had no money? she was like ayiii sylvia i dont need to hear it now .. she aint got no type of money for my brother when he needs a new pair of shoes anymore or when he needs a hair cut or something not anymore .. now since shes a pastor everything is for the stupid aSz church .. im sorry God but im sick of her and church and everything else .. i told her "you know what? im done helping you, im 18 and i dont have to help you anymore" she just looked at me .. its the truth she ALWAYS ends up needing me for something and shiet .. but when me or my little brother need something i aint got it .. or i aint got time aight well i rather get my sleep then help with them stupid asz little thieves. yes thats right them little motherfuckers stole 5 dollars from the OFFERING .. ROFL and my mother still says "im trying to change the world" rofl when i was little they tried with all of us .. and what happened? most of us that grew up in church are either gang bangers, pregnant, on drugs, dropped out of school. shiet like that you know? what you need church for then? i mean after it all they just a bunch of hypocrites .. man i hate this shiet i hate living here, so whatever shantii and me were talking and since im about to go to college i have to apply to different colleges and i just might be able to get into the university of mass !!!!!!! wOot wOot man that would be fun living by myself, making my own money .. i know it wont be easy but still i need to learn now u know? my mother did it when she was eight . teen man i used to have it soo easy and i know its going to be hard .. but i`m going to study and im going to do it .. if it takes years than it does but im still going to do it , and than when i get married and have kids imma do the same shiet to my mother like she did to hers .. never take them to her, never let them have a relationship with her .. what for? so she could treat them like she treats us? fuck that, i`ll pass on that shiet .. i know when i have my kid(s) i want them to be treated good, even if i`mma be a little hard on them because i need to teach them that the world is not easy you know? cause i thought it was all roses til my mother got divorce from my father and then got remarried to a nigga she wasnt even in love with .. fuck i aint even getting into that one, thats a hella lOng storyyy ughz so what else is there to talk about, man i remember when i used to have hella long entries and sheit .. jeff used to tell me you really think people are gonna ready all of that? and i would be like i dont know but i still have to write its just good for me sometimes .. and then when time passes i can come back and be like wtf was i thinking : ) or be like damn my mother is really crazy .. but i think that everyone has crazy parents sometimes u know? like sometimes u dont like what they do .. well in my case its like every day its an argument with my mother and it never STOPS its like from the time i wake up tiL the time i go to sleep .. the only reason sometimes we dont argue is because she aint here half the time, she always either at church or work .. and i should be used to it by now shouldnt i? i mean shes always done this .. all my fucking life, its been work church work church work church i should bhave known it was never going finish .. oh wellz man i dont know yesterday i was supposed to go on a date with jeff but i didnt go why? because yo its like hes a college boy and my uncle was here and he was like if i see that nikka imma ask him 248549329 questiOnz and i didnt want jeff going through that .. and what kind of name is JEFF ROFLMFAO nope not going to happen, not with sylvia at least .. sylvia needs something a little different .. omg than my uncles boy jojo came in .. nikka was like 6'4 and omgggggggg he had a bald head and *creamsz* i cant even finish he was just so gorgeous talking about his pool was finished .. he came on his motorcycle OMG i love tall motherfucking guys .. and he was looking at me ROFL i was cheezin .. i was in some capri pants and thisz black shirt and shiet looking all cute cause i THOUGHT i was going to go out with jeff so i looked cute u know? and than he comes it yo i was like omg ROFL i need to change into something not so hoochieish ROFL but oh wellz hes like 25 or something , kind of old huh? yeah i guess .. but older guys are not so immature well sometimes .. cause my uncle still likes to play games and shiet like that ROFL @ him well i changed my layout again... the last one had TOO many pictures of vin dieseL .. he loOkz too good though ;D .. lord tell me that ujournal is not gonna be acting up like livejournal .. well guess what ujournaL is fuQed up just like livejournal .. i hate this shiet i think i`mma just make a PAID account on livejournal cause thisz shiet aint cute -=[ well i made a BRAND new layout YET again .. but if someone wants to help me making a layout pleaseeeeeeeeeee i would appreciate it A LOT -=/ muahz
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