096; Gentle Fall
I've spent the last hour just sitting at the window, watching the snow fall. I wonder if the winter here will make me want to get away, like it does in Amarcord. This place isn't my home, but when I think that I've been in Econtra for most of a year now, I find it has become a sort of surrogate haven.
Cassis and I have worked things out now. Don't ask me how, I couldn't tell you. But no more failed wishes (Yuuko, explain?), no more avoiding the subject, no more second guessing. Mint will stay in my heart but I can't live by only embracing losses. Like any worthy treasure, you have to give a part of yourself before you can take from another.
I found out that Kir got a message from my mom. I didn't ask what the message was, I don't think I want to know. It's strange that my biggest objection to that is that she upset my partner by talking to him. When I thought about that, I couldn't decide what it meant or what it says about me.
I saw Aligoté earlier. He seemed... lively. Happy, even. I know I should go and talk with him, but I don't know what to say. Samus told me that there are equal costs for action and inaction. How does one know when they're doing the right thing?
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I want to think less, and live more. It seems the older I am, the worse I get at figuring out how to accomplish that.
Cassis and I have worked things out now. Don't ask me how, I couldn't tell you. But no more failed wishes (Yuuko, explain?), no more avoiding the subject, no more second guessing. Mint will stay in my heart but I can't live by only embracing losses. Like any worthy treasure, you have to give a part of yourself before you can take from another.
I found out that Kir got a message from my mom. I didn't ask what the message was, I don't think I want to know. It's strange that my biggest objection to that is that she upset my partner by talking to him. When I thought about that, I couldn't decide what it meant or what it says about me.
I saw Aligoté earlier. He seemed... lively. Happy, even. I know I should go and talk with him, but I don't know what to say. Samus told me that there are equal costs for action and inaction. How does one know when they're doing the right thing?
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I want to think less, and live more. It seems the older I am, the worse I get at figuring out how to accomplish that.