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this week ive been so bland. it may be from my sisters and my mom constantly yelling at me for my irresponsibility. but i cant exactly argue with them because its true. but i usually keep up with everything. and one of my best friend's negative attitude of herself may be rubbing off on me. if its one thing i cant stand its negativity. but now ive kinda been checking myself a lot too and feeling extremely low at times. the other day alicia said she thinks im depressed. i dont think so... i hope not. i think its also spiritual distress. it sucks to see people i care about hurting, but what sucks more is when they dont really know how much i care about them. i dont know. it seems i just keep getting let down. i guess some things to me mean so much, but people dont realize, or just dont care, and so they blow me off or make promises they dont intend to keep. i hate that. maybe im too naive. and now im buildint my walls up again which is never good. and contradicting myself about how im too naive im gonna say that i know it will get better. arrrrraghhhh........until then......
tears run down my face just like the last no different from yesterday
sick from the mirror. do these prayers feel sincere? the dirt never washes clear...
will these scars go away,in this world i have no place. will these scars go away, in this world i have no place.
FORGIVE ME, JESUS. THIS TIME I CRY. I RIP MY HEART OUT! TO GIVE TO YOU! ALONE IT NEVER DID ME ANY GOOD. HOLD ME CLOSE! WASH MY MIND! DESTROY THE ME THAT LIVES INSIDE
i love all of you guys*have an awesome night*