Another...
I have another orientation this morning. No the day's significance is not lost on me.
But I knoww it's a job. I *need* it. Damn,if I don't care to do the work. I just find it all so frustrating and back assward. But such is life. The more I try to unfuck myself the wworse everything gets. I have absolutely nobody on my side, no one is in my corner. I pray God is.
I get it. I am a loser. I was born to lose. To never succeed,to never find happiness. To stop thinking anything good will ever happen to me,because nothing ever has. What little I have has been a struggle to just recieve it,( and then I have people steal it). I know that definitely cannot win for losing. Well shit,here goes nothing.
But I knoww it's a job. I *need* it. Damn,if I don't care to do the work. I just find it all so frustrating and back assward. But such is life. The more I try to unfuck myself the wworse everything gets. I have absolutely nobody on my side, no one is in my corner. I pray God is.
I get it. I am a loser. I was born to lose. To never succeed,to never find happiness. To stop thinking anything good will ever happen to me,because nothing ever has. What little I have has been a struggle to just recieve it,( and then I have people steal it). I know that definitely cannot win for losing. Well shit,here goes nothing.