Love Sucks!
I've noticed something about myself... when i'm in a relationship and things are heading south and don't look like there going north anytime. I tend to close off myself from the other person and actually do everything to push them away. And well although i do think i'm a nice guy can act like an asshole in the process. This obviously leads to the end of the relationship among a lot more serious issues. I bring this up because I was dating Julie actually living with her for a year and she moved out in July. Our relationship had no definition for a year which was the main reason we never got along. I did close myself off from her in those last months... April, May, June... and did some asshole things. But history has repeated itself! Julie and I have now been removed from each other for the past couple months. We ended up hanging out a few times in the past couple weeks.. and actually had a good time the whole night through. Now I can't get my mind off of her. Can't even fall asleep at night. Although I must say i have many other issues on my mind. Seems like Julie is on my mind a lot! We have one of those weird magnetic attractions to one another like we know our history is poor and that we'll probably be nasty to one another but yet we are just drawn together. I tend to do this with all my relationships. A couple months out I start thinking of all the things we should of done right, and the relationship becomes clearer in my head. Yet no ex to date has ever gotten back together with me. I probably won't even try with Julie. But I at least want to try and be really close friends with her. A co-worker has said she'd rather try and fix and old relationship then start a new one. I'm feeling exactly the same way lately. I want comfort I want something familiar. Am I old and boring?