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"Can't sleep, drying eyes wide open,
Stare at the white stucco ceiling,
Turn on the tv, watch music on television,
Have I heard this song before, has this already happened?
Tried influence, and style of dress, simple little camera techniques and editing.
sync up the cuts(sync up cuts)
To the bass drum kick (to the bass drum kick)
Are the chase drinkers drinkin from the same glass?
Is there anybody thinkin' what I am?
Are you restless like me?
Are you restless like me?
Are you restless like me?
And on the inside theres rumors of declinin sales.
All the buzz is about the digital market place.
It'd be a warning, branded on the flipside,
The penalty of life, a risk of being prosecuted.
And in any moment, someone will ask the question,
"With the instant availability of information,
content so easily obtainable,
is the culture now a product thats disposable?"
Are the punks still singin' the same songs?
Is there anybody thinkin' what I am?
Is there any other arm being cut off?
Are you restless like me?
Are you restless like me?
Are you restless like me?
Like me?"
Acoustic - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_ycPql-GIk&mode=related&search=
Live - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NlsmH1oLzQk&mode=related&search=
This is how I feel. I guess this post is one of my rare serious posts (and somewhat emo). I am bored, bored with life. I wake up at eight everyday, go to work until six everyday. Come home, eat, go somewhere with friends. Sure, the places I go change, but it doesn't matter. And don't get me wrong, I have fun, I am not saying that I am not happy, because I am very happy, probably the happiest I have been in years. For the most part, obviously there are always thing that you would go back and change given the chance. But primarily happy.
The only thing now, is that I am bored. Life kind of gets less exciting from here on out, its all planned. What do I do now? Go to school, get a good job, find a wife to settle down with and have a family, then just step aside and let the new generation take over, which I guess is what I am SUPPOSED to be doing now. God only knows that no one wants to take over this shit-hole. Seriously, mass poverty, mass murders, more wars and fighting and political unrest than you could shake a stick at. Why would a generation want to take that over from the old one? The old one is whats causing them, why do we have to solve them?
It might seem like I am taking a "fuck the world, it is screwed anyways" style of attitude, but hear me out. I want to help, I really do. If I had the money to support myself I would be in Africa, or South America building homes and fighting the evil villains in a heartbeat. I KNOW, that I am capable of going to school for fifteen years and becoming another big time doctor, or lawyer like the other 3/5's of my family. But do I need to do that to prove I can? No. I know I can, if someone doubts me I really don't care.
But back to the matter at hand, I suppose that many of you are thinking "But Mat, you always said to hell with the environment and the world." This is true and not true. I say those things, but never really 100% mean them. I mean, I drive a Volkswagen, not some huge pickup, or lung destroying SUV. Granted there are more fuel efficient Volkswagen (TDI diesels), and too be honest, I really wish I had purchased one of those rather than my current vehicle. And I won't lie, I am kind of embarrassed to be seen driving it (hence tinted windows). I mean, I am not that fancy of a guy, my shoes are taped together, all of the shirts that I wear cost me less than 15 dollars. Sure every now and then you see me all dressed up, but my dress clothes weren't even expensive. The most expensive thing in my closet is a blazer from that Urban Outfitters store or whatever it is called in St. Vital. I really regret buying that, that was a huge mistake, but whatever too late now eh?
As for the world being screwed, it is and it isn't. I mean a fifth grader in the States stabbed a duck, and ducklings to death with a pencil today (or maybe yesterday), and then said that he didn't know it was wrong. It isn't the kids fault for not knowing, its the parents. I don't know about you people, but the first thing I am teaching my kids is the value of life, you only get one (allegedly), so don't waste it and ruin others.
I am smart enough to know that if something isn't making you happy to get it right the fuck out of there as fast as you can. I support this idea, don't waste your time with people, places, or things that aren't fitting to you. A certain someone, who is rather close to me (or I guess was) knows exactly what I am talking about here, and all I have to say is good for you. Your take charge attitude will help you out in the future. And that isn't me being sarcastic, that is the honest to god truth. Now this whole kicking things out of your life may sound selfish, but everyone is selfish, everyone does things for themselves. We are "individuals" so we need to individualize (which probably isn't a word) and be self sufficient and show everyone how successful we are, blah blah blah, etc etc. All you gotta do is just try to remember who did what for you in the past, cause no one is 100% self sufficient no matter how much you want to believe you are.
But back to teaching kids the value of life. My kids will know, that on any day of the week if I see someone step in front of a bus, I will be the first to run in front with them and throw them out of the way regardless of personal safety to myself. I'll be the first to wake my ass out of bed and drive across town to pickup a friend who had too much to drink and shouldn't drive home (it's been done). Now I am not trying to blow my horn, or toot, or whatever people say these days, I am just making a point. My kids will know, assuming I have them, which I hope I do.
But to back things up a bit to what I was talking about earlier. I KNOW, that I can do all the norms, get a job, find a wife, house, and so on and so on. But why do I want to? I am a big supporter of the Day of Dead, if I can do one thing in my life it would be to go to Mexico for this. I love Mexico more than any other country in the world. I love their culture, their history, their people, their food, their landscape, everything. I wish I could help, I honestly do. It breaks my heart when I go to Mexico and spend my time there walking around and talking to the locals, and buying things from them (even if I do not need them), to see how some of the nicest people I have ever met in my life have to live. I am being dead serious to, people say Canadians are nice, Canadians may as well be the rudest, and most obscene people in the world compared to Mexicans. So now that I know I can do the norm, why not try the other half of the world? Go build houses, hand out medicines, fight the super villains, but here I am, sitting here in my house (which it in itself is embarrassing to live in), typing this onto the world wide web. So why am I not doing this you ask? Because the world unfortunately for people like me doesn't work that way. People like me, who are born into the privileged, or the privileged are forever doomed to, lets say, roam the halls of detention. There is no way for me to help these people, or do these things. Why? Because the world has an economy, nothing is free, and the days where you could sign your name on a sheet and be on a plane for some exotic country to help are long and gone. I checked into it, it can cost upwards or seven thousand dollars if you want to go volunteer in Africa to build towns for people living there.
So I guess the general message I am trying to put across here is I am bored. I love you all to death, and once again, would gladly take your place in a life or death situation, but I am still bored. Life is boring, theres no excitement. Hell even the other day I was trying to think of what I could do for a sleeve tattoo because I want it to be autobiographical (well I guess biographical since I wouldn't be tattooing myself), and I thought, wow, other than a couple girlfriends, and jobs I haven't done anything. So that needs to change, I need to do things, go places, celebrate and travel. Sagan has it down, I think she told me she is in Spain, I wish I was in Spain.
Now as to the bold part up there, I'm not trying to be some big teen drama whore or whatever you want to call it, but if it happens, hey, it happens. Just because we don't talk anymore (hopefully you read this), I'm not mad for not being friends, in fact I really don't have any feelings whatsoever. Which in itself makes me even madder, that someone could be one of, if not my only best friend for 4 or 5 years, and then suddenly we aren't and I have no feelings towards it. THAT makes me angry, you all read up there what I said about kicking shit out of your life, so again, I support it, but I guess I always thought that I would be mad, or upset or depressed or something. Hahahaha, I guess that was my emo part for the day.
But anyways, now I am going to walk to the main floor of the house I am embarrassed to live in, eat a bowl of chicken noodle soup, watch tv being broadcast off a satellite that cost way to much and wasn't required, then get in my car that was too expensive, and again, embarrassed, and drive to some bar with David, and have fun. I will still be bored, but still having fun.
Cheers, good night all. I am sure I will be having another bonfire shortly so that Stefan can come, because apparently my fires are a lot of fun and people love them.
Oh also, I miss Adam Huybers and Shari Chapman.
Good night.
Stare at the white stucco ceiling,
Turn on the tv, watch music on television,
Have I heard this song before, has this already happened?
Tried influence, and style of dress, simple little camera techniques and editing.
sync up the cuts(sync up cuts)
To the bass drum kick (to the bass drum kick)
Are the chase drinkers drinkin from the same glass?
Is there anybody thinkin' what I am?
Are you restless like me?
Are you restless like me?
Are you restless like me?
And on the inside theres rumors of declinin sales.
All the buzz is about the digital market place.
It'd be a warning, branded on the flipside,
The penalty of life, a risk of being prosecuted.
And in any moment, someone will ask the question,
"With the instant availability of information,
content so easily obtainable,
is the culture now a product thats disposable?"
Are the punks still singin' the same songs?
Is there anybody thinkin' what I am?
Is there any other arm being cut off?
Are you restless like me?
Are you restless like me?
Are you restless like me?
Like me?"
Acoustic - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_ycPql-GIk&mode=related&search=
Live - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NlsmH1oLzQk&mode=related&search=
This is how I feel. I guess this post is one of my rare serious posts (and somewhat emo). I am bored, bored with life. I wake up at eight everyday, go to work until six everyday. Come home, eat, go somewhere with friends. Sure, the places I go change, but it doesn't matter. And don't get me wrong, I have fun, I am not saying that I am not happy, because I am very happy, probably the happiest I have been in years. For the most part, obviously there are always thing that you would go back and change given the chance. But primarily happy.
The only thing now, is that I am bored. Life kind of gets less exciting from here on out, its all planned. What do I do now? Go to school, get a good job, find a wife to settle down with and have a family, then just step aside and let the new generation take over, which I guess is what I am SUPPOSED to be doing now. God only knows that no one wants to take over this shit-hole. Seriously, mass poverty, mass murders, more wars and fighting and political unrest than you could shake a stick at. Why would a generation want to take that over from the old one? The old one is whats causing them, why do we have to solve them?
It might seem like I am taking a "fuck the world, it is screwed anyways" style of attitude, but hear me out. I want to help, I really do. If I had the money to support myself I would be in Africa, or South America building homes and fighting the evil villains in a heartbeat. I KNOW, that I am capable of going to school for fifteen years and becoming another big time doctor, or lawyer like the other 3/5's of my family. But do I need to do that to prove I can? No. I know I can, if someone doubts me I really don't care.
But back to the matter at hand, I suppose that many of you are thinking "But Mat, you always said to hell with the environment and the world." This is true and not true. I say those things, but never really 100% mean them. I mean, I drive a Volkswagen, not some huge pickup, or lung destroying SUV. Granted there are more fuel efficient Volkswagen (TDI diesels), and too be honest, I really wish I had purchased one of those rather than my current vehicle. And I won't lie, I am kind of embarrassed to be seen driving it (hence tinted windows). I mean, I am not that fancy of a guy, my shoes are taped together, all of the shirts that I wear cost me less than 15 dollars. Sure every now and then you see me all dressed up, but my dress clothes weren't even expensive. The most expensive thing in my closet is a blazer from that Urban Outfitters store or whatever it is called in St. Vital. I really regret buying that, that was a huge mistake, but whatever too late now eh?
As for the world being screwed, it is and it isn't. I mean a fifth grader in the States stabbed a duck, and ducklings to death with a pencil today (or maybe yesterday), and then said that he didn't know it was wrong. It isn't the kids fault for not knowing, its the parents. I don't know about you people, but the first thing I am teaching my kids is the value of life, you only get one (allegedly), so don't waste it and ruin others.
I am smart enough to know that if something isn't making you happy to get it right the fuck out of there as fast as you can. I support this idea, don't waste your time with people, places, or things that aren't fitting to you. A certain someone, who is rather close to me (or I guess was) knows exactly what I am talking about here, and all I have to say is good for you. Your take charge attitude will help you out in the future. And that isn't me being sarcastic, that is the honest to god truth. Now this whole kicking things out of your life may sound selfish, but everyone is selfish, everyone does things for themselves. We are "individuals" so we need to individualize (which probably isn't a word) and be self sufficient and show everyone how successful we are, blah blah blah, etc etc. All you gotta do is just try to remember who did what for you in the past, cause no one is 100% self sufficient no matter how much you want to believe you are.
But back to teaching kids the value of life. My kids will know, that on any day of the week if I see someone step in front of a bus, I will be the first to run in front with them and throw them out of the way regardless of personal safety to myself. I'll be the first to wake my ass out of bed and drive across town to pickup a friend who had too much to drink and shouldn't drive home (it's been done). Now I am not trying to blow my horn, or toot, or whatever people say these days, I am just making a point. My kids will know, assuming I have them, which I hope I do.
But to back things up a bit to what I was talking about earlier. I KNOW, that I can do all the norms, get a job, find a wife, house, and so on and so on. But why do I want to? I am a big supporter of the Day of Dead, if I can do one thing in my life it would be to go to Mexico for this. I love Mexico more than any other country in the world. I love their culture, their history, their people, their food, their landscape, everything. I wish I could help, I honestly do. It breaks my heart when I go to Mexico and spend my time there walking around and talking to the locals, and buying things from them (even if I do not need them), to see how some of the nicest people I have ever met in my life have to live. I am being dead serious to, people say Canadians are nice, Canadians may as well be the rudest, and most obscene people in the world compared to Mexicans. So now that I know I can do the norm, why not try the other half of the world? Go build houses, hand out medicines, fight the super villains, but here I am, sitting here in my house (which it in itself is embarrassing to live in), typing this onto the world wide web. So why am I not doing this you ask? Because the world unfortunately for people like me doesn't work that way. People like me, who are born into the privileged, or the privileged are forever doomed to, lets say, roam the halls of detention. There is no way for me to help these people, or do these things. Why? Because the world has an economy, nothing is free, and the days where you could sign your name on a sheet and be on a plane for some exotic country to help are long and gone. I checked into it, it can cost upwards or seven thousand dollars if you want to go volunteer in Africa to build towns for people living there.
So I guess the general message I am trying to put across here is I am bored. I love you all to death, and once again, would gladly take your place in a life or death situation, but I am still bored. Life is boring, theres no excitement. Hell even the other day I was trying to think of what I could do for a sleeve tattoo because I want it to be autobiographical (well I guess biographical since I wouldn't be tattooing myself), and I thought, wow, other than a couple girlfriends, and jobs I haven't done anything. So that needs to change, I need to do things, go places, celebrate and travel. Sagan has it down, I think she told me she is in Spain, I wish I was in Spain.
Now as to the bold part up there, I'm not trying to be some big teen drama whore or whatever you want to call it, but if it happens, hey, it happens. Just because we don't talk anymore (hopefully you read this), I'm not mad for not being friends, in fact I really don't have any feelings whatsoever. Which in itself makes me even madder, that someone could be one of, if not my only best friend for 4 or 5 years, and then suddenly we aren't and I have no feelings towards it. THAT makes me angry, you all read up there what I said about kicking shit out of your life, so again, I support it, but I guess I always thought that I would be mad, or upset or depressed or something. Hahahaha, I guess that was my emo part for the day.
But anyways, now I am going to walk to the main floor of the house I am embarrassed to live in, eat a bowl of chicken noodle soup, watch tv being broadcast off a satellite that cost way to much and wasn't required, then get in my car that was too expensive, and again, embarrassed, and drive to some bar with David, and have fun. I will still be bored, but still having fun.
Cheers, good night all. I am sure I will be having another bonfire shortly so that Stefan can come, because apparently my fires are a lot of fun and people love them.
Oh also, I miss Adam Huybers and Shari Chapman.
Good night.