for the sound

Feb 26, 2012 07:39

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Hot lime drink, early morning in Ireland, it's a misty grey morning and I'm planning to sight see today. I feel a bit grotty with the heater on all night, but when I was forced to purchase my own bedding (so I bought a polar fleece blanket) it doesn't quite do the job. Did they really expect me to purchase a full bedding set for a few weeks only?

Rude shock, the world isn't what it seemed to me. But there's hope. How we choose to see the world. When you invest your hopes in someone, your time in someone, and they let you down, ignore you, you feel worthless, you feel upset and discounted. Was life supposed to work out this way?

Maybe you do have to fall to know where you stand.

I wish I did have someone sometimes to fall back upon. But I suppose Ally McBeal prepared me well for this. haha. Or not so haha?

No! Life wasn't supposed to turn out like Ally McBeal.

Maybe there is really nothing at the end of all this. No real meaning in it all.
I hate to say that.
I've never wanted to believe that there is no meaning.
But maybe I have to acquiesce.

So what are we doing here?
No I don't need Zoloft, I swear I don't.
But whilst I'm here, what are these photographs for?
Why I am running like this?
Why am I walking around unknown neighbourhoods pretending to blend in?

All the while smiling for no reason at all.
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