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Every single time I begin to think im okay it blows up in my face.
I want to delete most of the pics on my comp.
Why? because I look happy in alot of them.
I hate seeing them because it makes me realize how unhappy I am.
And how long ago that happiness was.
Even the pics from the summer I want to delete.
I wasnt happy then, but I enjoyed life.
Its sad to say, but seeing the pics makes me even more depressed.
I know I should delete all the pics of me and b..
I deleted most of them, but theres a few I just cant bring myself to delete.
I know, its stupid, and me and him were long ago, but, idk.
Those pics will always be special to me. I guess.
Hah Im lame im talking about pictures on a comp like its a big deal.
For the most part, my life has been going down hill for the past two months.
Its my own fault, and I think its time to start going uphill.
Its actually starting to sink in that Im graduating.
Its weird.
I dont think I'm going to prom.
I want to go, but its probably not gunna happen.
See me and b made a promise, a pinky swear even(but a serious one), that we would go to prom together even if we were broken up, but now I asked him about it and he said he doesnt know.
I asked him again and he just didnt answer me.
So I dont know.
But if I dont go with him Im like 95% sure Im not going.
because ...
a.) who am i going to go with? i want to take someone i could actually talk to and stuff, not just some random guy.
b.) Im not going alone or with a chick.
c.) I wont be able to handle him there with another girl, it will break my heart and ruin my night.
So yeah that means Im probably not going. And it really sucks too cause everyone keeps talking about prom and its killing me.
I have other stuff to talk about but i just dont feel like typin.
Last night was ..interesting.random.
What a St. Pattys Day.. well.. night.
I want to delete most of the pics on my comp.
Why? because I look happy in alot of them.
I hate seeing them because it makes me realize how unhappy I am.
And how long ago that happiness was.
Even the pics from the summer I want to delete.
I wasnt happy then, but I enjoyed life.
Its sad to say, but seeing the pics makes me even more depressed.
I know I should delete all the pics of me and b..
I deleted most of them, but theres a few I just cant bring myself to delete.
I know, its stupid, and me and him were long ago, but, idk.
Those pics will always be special to me. I guess.
Hah Im lame im talking about pictures on a comp like its a big deal.
For the most part, my life has been going down hill for the past two months.
Its my own fault, and I think its time to start going uphill.
Its actually starting to sink in that Im graduating.
Its weird.
I dont think I'm going to prom.
I want to go, but its probably not gunna happen.
See me and b made a promise, a pinky swear even(but a serious one), that we would go to prom together even if we were broken up, but now I asked him about it and he said he doesnt know.
I asked him again and he just didnt answer me.
So I dont know.
But if I dont go with him Im like 95% sure Im not going.
because ...
a.) who am i going to go with? i want to take someone i could actually talk to and stuff, not just some random guy.
b.) Im not going alone or with a chick.
c.) I wont be able to handle him there with another girl, it will break my heart and ruin my night.
So yeah that means Im probably not going. And it really sucks too cause everyone keeps talking about prom and its killing me.
I have other stuff to talk about but i just dont feel like typin.
Last night was ..interesting.random.
What a St. Pattys Day.. well.. night.