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w00t. haven't been here in awhile..
i feel like ass..
life is, sort of.. unexpected these days
it seems harder to decipher how i should feel
emotions are weird.
thoughts that weren't
are.
thoughts that were
are not
i don't know.
i just want to be content.
i don't care about "happy" anymore
just
content.
i'm finding it much harder to..cope
than it once was.
finding out the true nature of people lately,
can't say it's exactly fun,
but it's helping to weed out the people who i
once would have proudly called my family.
deciphering those who are just out for themselves,
those who are full of themselves,
those who are completely full of SHIT,
those who would go behind my back,
those who call only when they need something,
those who could more than likely give a fuck less about my perception,
those who would deny their intentions completely,
those who would deny my thoughts as valid,
and "I" who find it easier to just detach,
without much confrontation
or reasoning of my disapproval
YOU can figure THAT out
snakes in the grass
shady folks
not my true brothers
it's kool tho
if you can do that to someone
good for you
but... either way.. fuck you, i wish no ill
and my discomfort will grow no further
you're not worth it.
but i'm sure it's just a "time" sort of thing
who knows
just can't deal with people/things/situations like that.
been fucked over one too many times by "friends" or "brothers".
girls, situations, goals, nonsense.
my knowledge will continue to grow
and softly will the night fall
TOMORROW: we strive forward.
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