Two Roads Diverged : Chapter 9

[icedteainthebag]

Title: Two Roads Diverged (9/10)
Author: icedteainthebag
Word Count: 34,420
Rating: MA
Pairings: John Cavil/Ellen Tigh, Ellen Tigh/Saul Tigh, Laura Roslin/Bill Adama
Warnings: Dubcon, physical violence
Summary: Sometimes we make mistakes when we think we're doing the right thing.
Notes: See Chapter One, but specific thanks on this chapter go to meryl_edan and larsfarm77.
Artist: MrsDrJackson

Comments

[larsfarm77]

Obviously couldn't defend herself. Obviously needs to be taken care of

Laura’s generally been one to be fine being mental rather than physical combatant. It’s hard to imagine her getting to this place.

Oooh, you really got me thinking..

Laura *has* endured extreme physical weakness during her first bout with cancer. What the disease did to her body was completely out of her control, which I think was a devastating thing for Laura especially, because control is something that she's clung to for a long time. Even an affair provides that. Her bullying Starbuck and Adama, taking on the mantle of religious leader, forcing herself to walk unforgiving miles on Kobol -- it was all her way of wielding some sort of control over her destiny, over her disease, AND she was successful.

On New Caprica, she has no position, no experience with the guerilla tactics necessary to resist, and for all her attempts to appeal to the humanity of the guard in her cell, is left bruised and broken on the floor. Refusing to take chemo the first time around for the cancer allowed her to hide it for a long time. She can't hide what happened now -- even if people can't see the bruises, simple things like walking, sitting and standing are going to be obviously difficult. There's no "map to Earth" to show for her fight this time, nothing. I can totally see her blaming herself in her frustration, that she can't find a way wield any control on NC.

[icedteainthebag]

Control... oh, Laura, that's what it's really all about, isn't it? She can blame physical weakness, or how she got there in the first place, but wow... how crazy must this have driven her in that she couldn't control both what happened to her and the aftermath that everyone had to have noticed?

Some really good points here, (((Lars))). Always appreciate your perspective on Laura's NC pain. :)