donnez-moi un "quoi, quoi!"
it`s fun using livejournal in french!! actually, it`s really annoying. coming home the 5th, at around midnight, woohoo! ...i hate airports and buses. so i`m going crazy up here and i`ve just been thinking about my life in general and i think it`s about that time that i go to egypt or somewhere like that. i`ve realised that no, i`m not ready for a relationship , especially not a serious one, at this point in my life. now, to tell my boyfriend that.... might take me a couple of months but if it gets to the point where we are living together it`s gone to far. i don`t know, i love him to death, he makes me happy but at the same time i`ve been fighting this ever-growing sadness within me and i`m wondering if my relationship is the cause. i`ve also realised that i don`t know what i want to do with my life and am struggling with my identity. great having these thoughts while here in canada, trying to learn another language. makes it real easy to concentrate on all this shit. maybe i`m just burnt out from what i don`t know, being someone i`m not? being who i want myself to be? i don`t know, i feel like this post, very unorganized disconnected. who knows..... certainly not me....