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I always knew a big boat would come and take me away.
Today has been one of the best days I've had in awhile. It's always good hanging out with old friends who you haven't seen in awhile. This summer has been pretty good to me, but the last few weeks I've been feeling desperate for anyone. I want someone to comfort me, I want someone to captivate me. I'm really sick of not having anything like that with someone. Most of the time I ignore my feelings because I know they're just going to get me nowhere. And eventually, as usual, it's probably just going to end up making me really fucking upset. I really want someone, but at the same time I'm thinking "fuck it" cause nothing has ever turned out successful for me in this kind of situation, and from the looks of it, it doesn't seem like anything is going to change anytime soon either. I get scared, and this makes me push away from any boy I like because I don't ever know what the fuck to say. Fuck being unwanted. And I've said fuck way too many times.
Today has been one of the best days I've had in awhile. It's always good hanging out with old friends who you haven't seen in awhile. This summer has been pretty good to me, but the last few weeks I've been feeling desperate for anyone. I want someone to comfort me, I want someone to captivate me. I'm really sick of not having anything like that with someone. Most of the time I ignore my feelings because I know they're just going to get me nowhere. And eventually, as usual, it's probably just going to end up making me really fucking upset. I really want someone, but at the same time I'm thinking "fuck it" cause nothing has ever turned out successful for me in this kind of situation, and from the looks of it, it doesn't seem like anything is going to change anytime soon either. I get scared, and this makes me push away from any boy I like because I don't ever know what the fuck to say. Fuck being unwanted. And I've said fuck way too many times.