Dazed & Confused
Yesterday was...well, empty.
I felt odd, going through my day, and working with yarn, WITHOUT working a granny square. It just did not feel right. I have become accustomed to the grannies. And, yesterday...Well, I would have been happy to work the bitchiest of bitchy grannies. She could have fought me, the whole way through. She could have been the scariest square, that ever there was, with stitches that are IMPOSSIBLE to work, and still, I am sure I would have been happy to have time with her. I would have welcomed the time, I would get to spend with granny.
But, there was no granny square.
It was sad. I was sad. I know it may sound completely odd, but the granny squares were almost like friends. Alright, some of them were like the backstabbing kind of friends, that enjoy kicking you, while you are down. But, still...I miss them.
I feel strange, not having a picture of a granny square to post, today. It just DOES NOT feel right, to me...not at all!
But, I can rest assured. After all, come September 1, I will bring out all my grannies, once again. They will come out of hiding, and I will get to make them, into an afghan. (God, September 1 seems so FRIGGIN far away!)
Then, there is the Bright Nights Wrap/Throw. Let us not forget that. This project is made up of granny squares, too. So, grannies will abound in my future. But, for now...I miss them. Call me weird. Call me a freak. Call me disturbed! But, I WANT time with my grannies, again, DAMMIT!
.Yesterday, I managed to get through the row I worked, on my Broomstick Lace Pillow, without even a single act of defiance, on its part. There was no BEGGING the yarn to stay in tact. There was no evil stitch, that took delight in royally PISSING me off. There was nothing. This pillow was COMPLETELY obedient. (I must say...I find it weird, that I miss my time with granny squares, so much. But, I CANNOT wait to be done with this Pillow. Funny, how completing one project (the 50 grannies) is a complete bummer, and the thought of finishing another project (the pillow) brings TOTAL delight.)
Only 4 more rows, of broomstick lace stitches, then I get to sew the two pieces together.
As for the Halloween Bag...
The cro-hook panel, which will be the bag, itself, was in the process of being blocked, yesterday. So, I got to work on another piece of this project. A pocket. I will say no more, on this. (Even though the actual project has been guessed, I still want to keep some element of surprise! Let me just say this. The pocket came out completely FRIGGIN awesome! Talk about working fiber, into complete and total perfection! This one pocked has me CONVINCED that I will, in fact, be placing, on this project, when I get it to the Fair.)
Anyway, after I finished working on my pillow, and the bag, I started thinking about the words of my sister, and the general LACK of support, that I am getting, in regards to The Yarn Project. And, I came up with this...
SCREW THEM! SCREW THEM, ALL! Let them think whatever negative little things, they want to, about The Yarn Project. Let them think it is a SILLY little idea. Let them go on thinking that my fascination with yarn is STUPID, and that this blog is just a silly waste of time.
Yes...let them think, whatever it is they want to think.
I DON'T FRIGGIN CARE, ANYMORE!
Sure, I could let the negative views of this Project, bring me down. I could easily feel dejected by all the hurtful things, I am hearing about The Yarn Project. And, I suppose I could let them win. I suppose that I could give up on this..."THE SAME WAY THAT YOU ALWAYS GIVE UP ON EVERYTHING..."
But, you know what?
I am NOT going to give up. I am going to continue. I am going to prove to them that I don't ALWAYS give up. I will MAKE them see that this Project means something to me...that is has value. It is not just some silly little project. It is more than some stupid waste of time.
The Yarn Project is MY Project. And, I am the one who will decide where to go with it.
And, where, exactly, am I going with it?
Straight to the end! June 9, 2012...You will be met, with success!
So, yesterday, I decided one thing.
Since I no longer have my grannies to work, I have some free time, on my hands, once again.
Free time that needs to be filled. So, time to get back to that much loved past time. READING!
F.Y.I.- You know you are really FRIGGIN obsessed with yarn, when even hobbies that don't include the act of physically working with yarn, somehow, take on the concept of yarn.
Today, I purchased the e-book Things I Learned From Knitting...Whether I Wanted To Or Not, by Stephanie Pearl-McPhee. So, now, when I am not physically tangled up in yarn, I can still be COMPLETELY obsessed with it (in an almost sickening way), through literature.
Yarn...I say it again. You are a drug. And, what a NASTY little drug, you have turned out to be. From you, there is NO escape. And, sad as it is, I would not have it, any other way.
Well, all, I am off.
Happy crocheting!