day 8 without cigarettes.....
i am so busy. but i finally quit the crap lousy tour guiding job. and i've started in the archives which has been ok. not the most exciting job, but i can't pass up the $12.42 an hour. as my dad put it, it will probably be the highest paying job i will ever get in my entire life. thanks dad.
things have been... confusing. i'm trying to decipher what the deal is with me and dan. i keep meaning to talk to him about it, and then we keep getting drunk and end up hanging out all night and being goofy, not having serious realtionship conversations. it's weird because he is 26. dating someone who is older is something i have never done. a lot of times i feel really childish and young around him. but i also feel really connected to him and comfortable. and i just really like him. fuckkk.
zak and are i seriously talking about a crust band, which i would sing for. we went to the stormcrow/funerot/subcontra show yesterday, and i fell in love with crust all over again. i miss being drunk with lots of people and dancing and yelling and being ridiculous. i hate to admit it, but i miss the smell. i'm not gonna go crusty on y'alls asses again, but i miss the way those kids smell. i miss dancing in pits and getting picked up off the ground when i get knocked over. and i love crust breakdowns. so fucking epic.
we had such a good time. then afterwards, zak, travis and scott came over and we watched PCU. then zak and travis and i went to eat at le voyuer, and then we came back here and hung out for a long time. and kate came over and it was so much fun. zak told me i am one of his best friends. awwwww.
i miss my mohawk, i think i may get one again. also, i am getting my tattoo very soon, i think.
life is so good. school isn't stellar, but everything else in my life is so good, that i can't be too bummed about how much i feel trapped by being in school.
things have been... confusing. i'm trying to decipher what the deal is with me and dan. i keep meaning to talk to him about it, and then we keep getting drunk and end up hanging out all night and being goofy, not having serious realtionship conversations. it's weird because he is 26. dating someone who is older is something i have never done. a lot of times i feel really childish and young around him. but i also feel really connected to him and comfortable. and i just really like him. fuckkk.
zak and are i seriously talking about a crust band, which i would sing for. we went to the stormcrow/funerot/subcontra show yesterday, and i fell in love with crust all over again. i miss being drunk with lots of people and dancing and yelling and being ridiculous. i hate to admit it, but i miss the smell. i'm not gonna go crusty on y'alls asses again, but i miss the way those kids smell. i miss dancing in pits and getting picked up off the ground when i get knocked over. and i love crust breakdowns. so fucking epic.
we had such a good time. then afterwards, zak, travis and scott came over and we watched PCU. then zak and travis and i went to eat at le voyuer, and then we came back here and hung out for a long time. and kate came over and it was so much fun. zak told me i am one of his best friends. awwwww.
i miss my mohawk, i think i may get one again. also, i am getting my tattoo very soon, i think.
life is so good. school isn't stellar, but everything else in my life is so good, that i can't be too bummed about how much i feel trapped by being in school.