What do I want?
Hmmmm..... I broke up eith my boyfriend of.. what, a week? Not even that... I feel bad, but I cannot be in a relationship where I'm uncomfortable. And I don't hink I can do a relationship right now. I went through three people in the past month or so... And right after being dumped (I can hardly think of it that way... The person is still so close to me...) by someone I went out with for about three months. I get attatched to people if they're near me too long, so... Wow, I am confused. I don't know if I want to be loved. I think that maybe, if I stop looking, someone wonderful will find me. Thats what happened with my friends. After going through some really shitty friendships in which I was teased, abused (Physically, mentally and emotionally), walked on, and neglected, I just gave up. For a while I was antisocial, refusing to talk to people. I still do this with unfamiliar people. Sadly, I do this still with people I should be used to by now. But, the point is, once I stopped looking, some of the most important people in my life found me. I want to trust them, but I'm afraid of getting hurt again (This sounds like 'Dear Abby'....!) I'm just having a hard time dealing with anyone right now. And I want to be supportive of my friends, but I don't know how!!!