NOW.
Saw Sam and now I'm a little better. But I know that it's going to be a long time before I get to see him again. But I'm going to try as hard as I can not to make it such a long time. I've missed him so much lately.. I cry myself to sleep.. I want to do bad things that I've stopped doing. It really sucks having one of the only things that makes me happy tken out of my life. But through all this;;; we still love each other. And that tells me that our relationship will last.
Mom isn't being as evil.. I think she gave up. Dad is... well dad. I'm really confused about my parents at the moment.
Brookie is my best friend again. That's great. And it's really helped me a lot with all this shit.
Maybe.. someday... I'll be happy.