You Damn Recluse...
Jesus I need friends...
I olny have one friend in the whole world, Cosmos. We've been best friends for seven years, and I'd most likely be dead without her, so I'm not complaining on our friendship, I'm just saying I'd love to, you know, connect with someone new.
I met this girl a while ago, a little under a year ago. Her name's Cinda, and she's amasing. I met her through my exgirlfriend's friend Tom. She's just like me, except so much more pure and beautiful. She's an insaine artist, who loves to write poetry that never ceases to blow me away. We have the same views and interests, and she's the type of person that I can talk to for hours and never ever be bored.
But were just in that "aquantiance" type of place, and I've never even met her in person. But she's kind and soft to me, and she always lets me talk about things that are on my mind, and I do the same to her. She always listens and never judges, and has nothing but good and reassuring things to say to me. She has no idea about the way I think about her, but she has her heart set on this girl names Vickie who goes to my school. She says they never talk anymore, but she still really likes her and wants to be with her.
And that just makes me not want to persue her. I feel dejavu. I mean, I know she would never do what my ex did to me, but I still don't want to compeat with someone else. I can't do that right now.
But everytime we talk, I want to desperatly to tell her how much she means to me, and how I'm always thinking about her.
I doubt she'd like me anyway. So I'd do better just forgetting about her.
I need to meet new people, but I don't know how. Cosmos is really popular, but most of her friends make me want to swallow knives, so I don't see her introducing me to someone new.
All well, I'll figure somthing out.
=)
And I know that no one really reads these, but it's nice to vent to no on in particular.
I olny have one friend in the whole world, Cosmos. We've been best friends for seven years, and I'd most likely be dead without her, so I'm not complaining on our friendship, I'm just saying I'd love to, you know, connect with someone new.
I met this girl a while ago, a little under a year ago. Her name's Cinda, and she's amasing. I met her through my exgirlfriend's friend Tom. She's just like me, except so much more pure and beautiful. She's an insaine artist, who loves to write poetry that never ceases to blow me away. We have the same views and interests, and she's the type of person that I can talk to for hours and never ever be bored.
But were just in that "aquantiance" type of place, and I've never even met her in person. But she's kind and soft to me, and she always lets me talk about things that are on my mind, and I do the same to her. She always listens and never judges, and has nothing but good and reassuring things to say to me. She has no idea about the way I think about her, but she has her heart set on this girl names Vickie who goes to my school. She says they never talk anymore, but she still really likes her and wants to be with her.
And that just makes me not want to persue her. I feel dejavu. I mean, I know she would never do what my ex did to me, but I still don't want to compeat with someone else. I can't do that right now.
But everytime we talk, I want to desperatly to tell her how much she means to me, and how I'm always thinking about her.
I doubt she'd like me anyway. So I'd do better just forgetting about her.
I need to meet new people, but I don't know how. Cosmos is really popular, but most of her friends make me want to swallow knives, so I don't see her introducing me to someone new.
All well, I'll figure somthing out.
=)
And I know that no one really reads these, but it's nice to vent to no on in particular.