May 02, 2005 20:21
one of the keys on my keyboard isn't working. you will find out which one it is soon enough. i will just ha_e (there it is) to write and underscore instead. so bear with me and if i spell anything wrong, i apologize.
i am totally scared for life from the fetal pig. i don't think that i will e_er think of the human body the same. i mean, i feel all fragile and like michelle could just slice me open with a rusty scalpel and a pair of dull scissors. i mean, it is really scary - what we are composed of. and i think that i will ne_er think of the penis the same either. i mean, they are really gross to look at from the inside. and the teacher just ripped the poor things testicles out like it was nothing.
i am feeling oddly manipulati_e of late. i don't exactly know why, but i really want to just make someone hurt or something. it is really sick actually. well, i don't want to make them hurt really, but i do want to manipulate someone. i could possible ha_e this urge because i feel like i am losing control of myself or my situation or both i don't really know. i actually think that could be it. but i also think that it would just be really fun to fuck with someone's head. i honestly don't know what is wrong with me.
also, i ha_e found that not all boys are as gross and annoying and asshole-y as others. some of them don't think of us as cum deposits, and others unfortunately do. i think that is a little more sick and demeaning than ha_ing the subtle urge to manipulate someone. i really really do, and i think that most of you girls would find it the same.
and i am really getting sick of writing that letter as an underscore, it is a hassle and annoying. sorry...