oh the times they are a changin'
summer is coming to a halting stop.
the end is near and i can feel the pressure closing in around me. pressure to go away to college, pressure to stay here, pressure from my family, pressure from my friends, pressure from society, and most of all pressure from me.
i'm actually glad to be returning to school though. i'm glad that the shackels of summer and what summer is supposed to be are removed. because, summer does have these expectations. . . these amazing expectations that could not possibly be met and serve only as disappointments. at least school is supposed to be shitty. and at least i feel like i am getting something accomplished in the middle of all my wallowing. during summer, i feel like i'm not doing all of the things i'm supposed to be doing and when i do them, they aren't as fun as i thought they would or should be. it's all just a mix of let-downs.
that was sort of depressing. . . and i apologize, because i'm actually really excited (in a way) to be going back to school. i get to see all of the people that i don't usually hang out with. and i'm a senior so i will be able to bask in the glory of seniordom. and i will be able to see a little less of certain people.
all in all, this has been one of the most eventful summers of my life. with all the good and bad that an extremely eventful summer comes with.
see you on the fifteenth. . .