So, you back into guys now?
I just had one of my guy friends who's liked more awhile now if I were back into guys now. My reaction to this is three word. What the fuck?! -pops fingers in preperation of a rant about gayness not being a choice. (yes, I said gayness)- Now, I could say I hate it when people ask me this question, but I would be lying. Because I don't hate it. I absouletly, completely and totally destest it. Everyone just thinks we wake up one day and go, "I think I'm going to be gay today." No slick, thats not how this works. I knew I liked girls when I was twelve. Twelve! I was never "into" guys. I settled for guys because I always seemed to like the girls who were completely straight, or taken. You think people would have noticed something when all the guys I dated looked like girls. Or dressed like them. The first boyfriend I had who wasnt like this, I only dated to make a girl jealous. That plan didnt work, but it was worth a try.
Once I actually dated a girl, I for sure knew I didn't like men. Now, could I find a guy and him be totally awesome and me fall in love with him? Yes, thats possible. Why? Because you dont fall in love with someone gender you fall in love with the person. A youtube channel that I am subscribed to is called LGBTeen. They answer questions that anyone may have, they say that you can identify yourself as lesbian all day and be with a guy. I know a girl who is a lesbian and she's dating a guy. I on the other hand, know that there is only one guy I could ever see myself being with. And thats my best guy friend. Why him? Because he's great and he knows alot about me because we are best friends and we talk about everything. Not to mention, he looks like a girl. And acts like he's gay and I swear he is, but thats beside the point. I know I want to be with a girl and the only way I will ever be with a guy is if I dont have a steady relationship with a girl by 35. Why? Because I want kids damnit. All Ive ever dreamed of it being a mother, yes I would settle for being unhappy so I could have kids. I can do this with a girl its just a shit load of money. $10,000 to be exact. And it doesnt take that long to do.
But, I plan on being in a stable relationship with a girl by age 35. My best friend probably doesnt want me to, but I do. He suggested we do something like in "My Best Friends Wedding"
If you've never seen it, these two best friends make a plan to were if one of them isnt married by age 40, I think, they'll marry each other. Well, theyre both madly in love with the other but neither of them tell and one of them is actually getting married so she tries to stop the wedding and that mushy shit and then they get married.
But, I really dont want to do that simply because I know him and he'll follow me and wait for me. He's already waiting for me now, hoping I just happen to fall in love with him. And I'm begining to think I totally got off subject.
Okay, back to the subject. I didn't just wake up and decide this. This has been in me since I was a exploded from the mother, but I didn't figure it out until later. Thats how I believe this works. And how it actually does work, even though people beg to differ. But those people are stupid, close-minded, asswholes. As you can tell, Im very opinionated on this subject. Then again, Im an artisty person, therefore I'm open-minded and think out of the box. Most people dont. They go by whats "normal". Define what normal is? Because everyone has their own definition of the word, no matter what the dictionary says.
Okay, I'm done with my rant for tonight. Sometimes I feel like thats all I do, but Ive learned from expericance I keep all my emotions in this little bottle inside and when that bottle gets too full, its like a bottle of coke filled with Mento's. It explodes. And thats really not good, because them I'm this little emo ball of emotions spilling out everywhere. So, if I rant about it here that bottle doesnt overflow as quickly or as much. So, it helps me out alot. Even though I'm sure you guys hate seeing me rant. Oh, by the way, did you know I'm gay?
xoxoxo
thexpoison
Once I actually dated a girl, I for sure knew I didn't like men. Now, could I find a guy and him be totally awesome and me fall in love with him? Yes, thats possible. Why? Because you dont fall in love with someone gender you fall in love with the person. A youtube channel that I am subscribed to is called LGBTeen. They answer questions that anyone may have, they say that you can identify yourself as lesbian all day and be with a guy. I know a girl who is a lesbian and she's dating a guy. I on the other hand, know that there is only one guy I could ever see myself being with. And thats my best guy friend. Why him? Because he's great and he knows alot about me because we are best friends and we talk about everything. Not to mention, he looks like a girl. And acts like he's gay and I swear he is, but thats beside the point. I know I want to be with a girl and the only way I will ever be with a guy is if I dont have a steady relationship with a girl by 35. Why? Because I want kids damnit. All Ive ever dreamed of it being a mother, yes I would settle for being unhappy so I could have kids. I can do this with a girl its just a shit load of money. $10,000 to be exact. And it doesnt take that long to do.
But, I plan on being in a stable relationship with a girl by age 35. My best friend probably doesnt want me to, but I do. He suggested we do something like in "My Best Friends Wedding"
If you've never seen it, these two best friends make a plan to were if one of them isnt married by age 40, I think, they'll marry each other. Well, theyre both madly in love with the other but neither of them tell and one of them is actually getting married so she tries to stop the wedding and that mushy shit and then they get married.
But, I really dont want to do that simply because I know him and he'll follow me and wait for me. He's already waiting for me now, hoping I just happen to fall in love with him. And I'm begining to think I totally got off subject.
Okay, back to the subject. I didn't just wake up and decide this. This has been in me since I was a exploded from the mother, but I didn't figure it out until later. Thats how I believe this works. And how it actually does work, even though people beg to differ. But those people are stupid, close-minded, asswholes. As you can tell, Im very opinionated on this subject. Then again, Im an artisty person, therefore I'm open-minded and think out of the box. Most people dont. They go by whats "normal". Define what normal is? Because everyone has their own definition of the word, no matter what the dictionary says.
Okay, I'm done with my rant for tonight. Sometimes I feel like thats all I do, but Ive learned from expericance I keep all my emotions in this little bottle inside and when that bottle gets too full, its like a bottle of coke filled with Mento's. It explodes. And thats really not good, because them I'm this little emo ball of emotions spilling out everywhere. So, if I rant about it here that bottle doesnt overflow as quickly or as much. So, it helps me out alot. Even though I'm sure you guys hate seeing me rant. Oh, by the way, did you know I'm gay?
xoxoxo
thexpoison