been awhile..
wow i haven't written in a long ass time! so much has gone on but yeah.. don't wanna talk about it. i'm trying to put it behind me but it keeps resurfacing somehow. i guess i just think too much and my brother's an asshole sometimes and brings it up. but, anyway, i was talking to steve and he mentioned his journal and i was like.. i should check it out. and so i read all of his (very entertaining, btw) and decided to write in mine. i'm having a stupid day today. sorry, everyone.. and steve.. who has to talk to me online right now. yeah. so i don't know what's wrong with me lately. like, i'll just cry out of nowhere and it sucks. someone said it sounded like a normal thing to happen after you've kicked a bad habit (um... drugs. god, i hate saying that). Even though I haven't since May 8th - yay! -, i guess it's still normal. i don't know. but it's depression? naw, i don't think so cuz i'm overall pretty happy most of the time. it's just those moments when i'm alone and think too much and sorta re-live all that, when it happens. like right now.. i'm thinking, and i'm like how stupid was i?! damn. enough of that. more happy stuff.. lori had her baby monday! and i get to go see him in about a half hour. i'm excited cuz i love babies and kids and all that. i think that's all i have to write about.. nothing really exciting going on and i'm just rambling and stuff. sorry, everyone. oh my god.. one of the guys who got me into drugs is online and i'm like, freaking out. i thought i blocked him...????? close to hyperventilation or whatever it is here. oh my god.
hmm, they don't have rad on here as an emotion? that's gay.
hmm, they don't have rad on here as an emotion? that's gay.