your sins into me

[thexnicexstoner]

depression is an obsession a recipe for pain...fathers day is just another day for me but I feel hurt. I have no dad and usually today doesn't bother me, but the resent loss of my whole family makes me depressed. My father is a bum he feeds of the generosity of others, he is scum. I have many half brothers and sisters out there cause of him. The only one I've seen in a picture is john hall and that is cause he basically lied to a woman got her pregnant and then took everything from her. she contacted my mother and told her everything. the one memory I have of him is a stumbling idiot that drinks. His soul is deprived from the drinking. I believe constant drinking makes you numb to human emotions. I in turn drink though I know what might happen to me I could end up like him and if I did it would be worst that death.
If you could choose to kill one person in your life I would do the world a favor and kill him, he is a monster. Threw his drunken state he is evil at it's best. He beets women for money to drink so I do not consider him a man, a man wouldn't do that a man would stick up for what he "loves" I try to not be like him or anyone like that. but because of resent events I feel ashamed of myself and hate what I see in the mirror. I am not a man I am a confused boy. I do not have the right to call myself a man.
To those who read this please I beg of you do not treat your family and or companion like shit cause you never know when you will not have anyone. live life that is worth living