Apr 10, 2008 14:32
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1. NAUSEA & SHUDDER
So long, to the other side of light
So long, to the nameless liberty
So long, swallow the anxieties
So long, jump higher than the others
Tear off the hole covered wing, jump, forcing the eyes open
Even if HEAVEN is covered with mud, it becomes a paradise if we live in it.
The shoulders carry the days losing their golden plating, together with the monotonous insults, they devoured.
Deepening the wound, move on forward. Yeah, the realities in front of your eyes are everything.
So long, break the darkness
So long, to the nameless liberty
So long, swallow the anxieties
So long, shaking heart beat
LOOP ask myself, LOOP hate myself
LOOP tge end of the suffering LOOP, I’m looking at HEAVEN’S DOOR
A bird reaching a flock heading west will soon feel loneliness
Looking at the thinning wing and it asks: “Is there everything you desire?”
More than the view which everyone saw, the world which is falling into shadows
And I deeply prayed to a vanishing light.
In deep, slow sky.
You can stay there, if you are afraid of the unknown future.
That’s what the left behind “Nameless Liberty” used to say as it laughed.
He’s bathed in light and he swears not to turn his eyes from the unstable future
2. MAGGOTS
The stuck-up dictator piles up vomit
Unfortunaly the words he discharges are real.
With an accustomed hand movement, these mutational feelings destroy the image.
The self-satisfying opinions and ideas are miscasts tending to be dreams.
Always hating changes dragging the writhing ideals.
That guy, that guy, that guy feels fear of a pitfall too.
[Dictatorship] kill off inside
[The breain of a snow] kill off inside
[Crazy laud lovers] kill off inside
[The coward who loves] kill off inside
Section to a dirty sow
I’m not your shit box
Sanction to a dirty sow
It is different!
You are fat maggots!
3. Cockroach
I am moving on a deep and muddy bottom and
wearing unrecognized feathers. Am I “attractive”?
The “unreasonable” action suits me, doesn’t it? That’s fine.
I am living, spoiled very fuck’in doubter!
Natural born trash human
Natural born worthless fellow
Natural born rebel spirit
It is as good as rotted oranges
I stretch my arm and stare off a far wall.
Do you see this muzzle that aims at your head now?
Now by this hand in a free cockroach some time
Do you see this muzzle that aims at your head now
I am seen. In future when you fall on ground…
I wanna believe that I can reach it if I stretch my arm.
Natural born trash human
Natural born worthless fellow
Natural born rebel spirit
It is as good as rotted oranges!
4. SILLY GOD DISCO
It is cheesed with power and the morality of which it goes mad
A lot of people became dogs having been tied to a chain
Your happy there?
I want to be enjoying the life though it will knock against a high wall hereafter
I’m already dead however I was saved with the rock.
I swore it at that time. I will walk life that shines highest
There is no fear. It gets it over though there is a painful day too
Now let’s go. The wing expands and goes to look for freedom and the glory
The world that extends to the place waits surely for you
Shall we dance? Real Cinderella, with the scratch glass Doc Martens.
Hey God! Are you ready?
Let me hear it “bodies”
I will show you the top tonight
Increase the distortion
Echo tonight,
You can do anything to me.
Please throw me into this Funk’n roll that is sweeter then [DO LUCK] on this mad night
5. A RED DRESS (AKAI WANPISU)
I am very selfish, I don’t have any rules.
No one gonna blame me. ‘Cause I call myself a queen, maybe maybe maybe.
There are many guys who flirt with me.
But I have a favourite man.
This is the first-and-last love in my life. I’m gonna succeed in it with deceits. But, but in fact, I am a very unskilful person.
Come to my house, I will make you fall in love with me.
His aroused face is so cute.
The red laced dress is my only thing to boast.
The right bending criminal stands bolt upright and he is just like a dog.
Painful, Dark and I loved you!!
Painful, painful, painful, it’s so painful!!
My mega mega fuck’n ???
You have a strict ideal, so you may become aware of my attractiveness.
It may be a good time to eat. I wear tobacco smoke on my body and do so egoistically.
I have pretended as a queen but I am just a “female.”
Little sweet flirts or his massive chest and eyes
Will be just a scar and melt melt melt. I wanna be happy, I wanna be happy.
I was hating myself slowly. People said I was a bad person so I became disgusted with myself very much.
I just leave regrets of my agonizing life.
6. A KNIFE OF 14 YEARS OLD (Juuyonsai no knife)
Ah, the fine blue sky depresses me again today.
I feel like being overwhelmed by garbage.
I just fret myself and it irritates me again today.
Please go away. Please don’t kill me anymore.
Ah, the puberty impulse is speeding up.
The world doesn’t care about me anyway.
I am tired of pretending I’m a good boy.
It’s over now. The less representing “me”.
I remember it when I close my eyes.
The head on asphalt. The spreading red.
Manualed TVs will be slowly
Filled with my name.
Love and kindness are foreplay of betrayal.
That’s why I don’t want to be loved by anyone.
I try to be invisible and unwanted stuff.
Then I may feel much calmer than now.
The depressing fine afternoon
Red sirens and dull adults
I get legal restraints on both my wrists.
It spreads coldly.
When I listen carefully.
Then I hear the young screaming of pain. The cutting ballade
Classmates behind mosaics tell the cameras
“Did he do it? It’s unbelievable”
I have healed by hurting somebody.
Surrounded by hooting I head to a new stage.
Cherry blossoms can be slightly seen between monotone car’s windows.
The spring has bloomed all over the town.
To myself in 13 years later, am I smiling naturally?
I may find something and will be able to change by then.
I am still alive and facing up to the crime.
The depressingly fine blue sky cannot be seen from this prison.
The jail-term is 13 years and one year and four months from parole.
7. LUKE WARM RAIN AND ROUGH PASSION (Namaattatakai ame to zaratsuita jyounetsu)
I cannot forget the photographic object, which fell down as if it collapsed.
While I was waiting for you I rubbed my staggering legs. You surely won’t forgive me.
I hear a sound in the rain. It stopped in front of me.
Only in you, only in you.
I don’t want to have any secrets.
I want you to understand me. Only once.
Close you eyes to the desperate lie and hug me.
Ah you can make me whatever you want, because of the lie in your hand.
“Escape with me” with the knife in the pocket.
I sing to the rain, which still does not stop. It’s sticking on my shirts and it won’t vanish.
Please rain, wash off the rusty stinky crime soon.
Darlyn…, now the jealousy that follows you has been taken away,
Am I the only one who sinks into your heart?
When I met you, you didn’t even use an umbrella and were searching for me short of breath,
I was so happy, only for that…
Then I waited for that moment without any words.
We hugged, listening to a waltz of asphalt and rain.
I want to evade the overflowing weakness and
To drown in the sweet kiss with you.
You delicate hands are filled with kind passion.
Leaving behind a promise of the past, I wave to a red siren.
SAYONARA my forever love, SAYONARA to leaving you
I believe in the last you; remaining on the rough tip of my tongue.
Should the rain fall next time we meet, I will share an umbrella with you.
1. Barretta
“The wet sunflowers hope the future for the two of us.
They bloom kindly with calm faces, seaming to protect us, they are awaiting the coming day.”
I remember you looking at the puddle, I still feel you by my side now.
The hand which scolded you, when we didn’t understand each other well, still hurts.
The silence which took you showed me.
I can’t call out to happiness, the revolving lantern won’t let me forget the reposing day.
When I draw close to the voice, I hear and the yearning confuses me.
Recall and reflect upon the little by little merging day.
”Don’t go”, I wished
The rain and separation at the end of May are the same as that day.
They wet and shake the second meeting.
And I will be laughed at because everything was a dream.
I can feel it when our fingertips touch, the fear of tomorrow won’t become words
Rather than just embracing you, I wish that both our realities, existing in our hearts, will not disappear.
The days like dreams were only a few. Your last dying words are too calm and “Please don’t forget”, so I hoped.
The sky after the rain at the beginning of June is the same as that day.
The sun said good-bye for a second time.
And it laughed at me because everything was a dream, transient dream.
Today I’m living, staring at the “Barretta” which you left.
9. D.L.N
I understood it from the beginning. So I’m not sad.
Little by little, little by little. It’s as counting numbers.
The withering colors of plants get blurred. I don’t understand the end of a season.
The day, which traces footprints, calls to the day, which listens to footprints.
To me, who doesn’t have any wishes, tomorrow is an unchangeable thing.
The plants follow the withering sound, and I feel the end of a season.
The flowers in full bloom are coloring, what will be left inside of me?
The moon draws the curtain. But the sun shines on me.
I understand it from the beginning. So I’m not sad.
Even if the awakening night doesn’t end. And even if there are
No shiny stars there. Even if the all lights and colour town vanish…
I saw enough of the happy face of the one I should protect and the end of the one I loved. So I am satisfied with it.
10. Bath room
Why can’t I sleep? I was deeply moved by the silence.
Alone again in the damp room, feeling empty if I were to sing softly to myself. Why can’t I sleep? Because I saw you.
You look down at the wet floor. Leaning the head while sleeping.
Without any feelings for this unwanted reality.
I adoringly looked at you without saying a word and even forgetting to blink. I want to fall asleep, just feeling the fear of awaking.
I want to forget everything. It is selfish nonsense.
I call your name. I go mad with the silence.
I shouted while holding your thin shoulder. It was too frail with warmth.
I was deeply moved by this unwanted reality, leaving my heart drowning deeply in this truth.
Painfully I found out that it even was meaningless that I had been born not to cry.
The voice keeps spewing reasons.
They mean nothing to me.
Your face before my eyes looked so lonely.
I hated myself so much because I couldn’t do anything for you.
To you, who gave me my name. Can you stay at my side?
Yeh, for me you are the first and last kind “mother.”
I softly lined you with deep red color on the white wall.
I came close, touching your still warm cheek. I just smiled calmly.
A big teardrop was filled with your image, it felt like you and the teardrop became one.
The time when the eyelids close and the warmth is gone. I am beside you.
11. Body temperature (Taion)
A wintry sky and the broken streetlight, cold wind.
Unknown shadow the footprint of desertion.
Freedom was taken.
If it wakes up, a gloomy ceiling.
A laughing voice sinks in the eardrum, it is soiled.
And violence rapes me.
An understand is impossible.
Why was I chosen? Someone should answer…
Please answer me, it is a horrible dream.
How much should I shout, writhe and suffer?
Please tell me it is a horrible dream.
With a breaking voice, I shouted again and again.
There is no hand preparing the disordered hair.
A laughing voice sinks in the eardrum, a faint temperature is mixed in the midwinder.
I restrained my voice and persuaded my dying self
Not to lose sight of the living.
In the trembling night I restrained my voice and drowned in the pain.
Please forgive my cut off breath.
Please answer me. It is a horrible dream.
How much should I shout, writhe and suffer?
Please tell me it is a horrible dream.
In the end, I want to try to smile just one more time.
12. Shadow VI II I
The left ‘Scar’ is vague and hesitating. It shades off it’s weakness with ‘Red’-
II IX II IX II IX, the ‘Scar’ is shallow and meaningful and it vaguely, vaguely ties the breath.
Under the sun, the top of the floor of a building, ‘EGP’ is separated by one hand.
Behind a blindfold, I’m singing -asking for life-
OO OV OO OV OO OV unstable breathes, the vague cague ‘Scar’ ties tomorrow.
To you. Will you smile at me if you are over the pain and everything is healed one day?
niaP wolS
I have nothing.
It is the way of the strong behaving weakness and the living scar.
The night when you feel like being smashed,
I embrace the shadow, that corners you.
Hanging from a white white string.
Good night, can I sleep tonight?
II IX II IX II IX Tying tightly slowly. The ‘Scar’ in my throat feels peace.
Never hold the breath…
And, it keeps believing tomorrow happiness.
nwoD wolS
The wound will disappear one day.
I will take you to the end of sadness.
You still want ‘Red’.
But you must know that you can walk.
13. Go to hell
14. the social riot machines
15. Carry?
16. The murder’s TV
17. Kantou dogeza kumiai
18. Discharge
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