bleh..
man...i dont know what's wrong with me today, i just really dont feel good. i'm not sick, i just dont feel good inside, i dont know why. i'm just..unhappy today, somethings wrong. i dunno what but ..i dunno...something somewhere is getting to me somehow but i dont know what it is. i just feel like crap, i feel down and humorless. i feel unloved, unhappy and alone. man...lonely. as a matter of fact, you may wanna stop reading here because this entry isn't gonna get any better. i'm just really confused lately. lines keep getting blurred about what i want, what i should do and why and how. i feel like i'm falling tp pieces..or being torn up into them. i really just wanna hold someone and be held and be told that i'm really loved. by another and also by God. i'm having a really hard time not feeling like i'm nothing but a fuck up lately..or just feeling like i'm nothing. i really dont know what's come over me but i'm just really unhappy and i cant do anything. i feel really unmotivated to do...anything..my grades are going down a little( i havn't done math hw in weeks) and i just cant help it. i can scarcely even care. i dont know if maybe i have a little cold that isn't making me sick, but just feel down, or if its school or if its satan or a demon or what..i just feel like shit inside.
I really want God to just take all this crap away from me. it's killing me. but then i guess it wouldn't be called "faith" and "enduring" if it were a walk in the park, so i guess that's too much to ask. God was talking to me about all this crap earlier tonight, gut i just dont feel any better yet. i just wish someone i could be close to would just love on me and somehow fix everything, but i guess thats not gonna happen.::sigh:: man i feel like shit ran over sevenfold. someone pray for me or soemthing? just maybe think a nice thought? i dunno..i suck
Just dont listen to me, i dunno what's wrong with me, but i'll try to stop being a bitch about what ever the hell it is. i'm sorry for this post, forget it.
I really want God to just take all this crap away from me. it's killing me. but then i guess it wouldn't be called "faith" and "enduring" if it were a walk in the park, so i guess that's too much to ask. God was talking to me about all this crap earlier tonight, gut i just dont feel any better yet. i just wish someone i could be close to would just love on me and somehow fix everything, but i guess thats not gonna happen.::sigh:: man i feel like shit ran over sevenfold. someone pray for me or soemthing? just maybe think a nice thought? i dunno..i suck
Just dont listen to me, i dunno what's wrong with me, but i'll try to stop being a bitch about what ever the hell it is. i'm sorry for this post, forget it.